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SKuD ary - skidded off the path @ 10:04 PM
Hello people.. cant stay long.. at DTE rite now... supposed to study one.. Cheer up la ppL... exams near ready... 49 days lehhh.... wahaha kkae... shudnt say much here... I HATE YOU YOU FUCKING BASTARD. hahaha okae... shall go now.. ByE~ ary - skidded off the path @ 9:06 PM
Auditions todae.. i guess it went gooD... only the snare.. sounded more like a tOm.. muahaha.. aniwaes.. fahmy got all nervouse after he sAng.. wahaha.. ScHOol was okae la. usual boring crappy stuff.. miss koh didnt come todae... very rare.. that she's absent.. so.. free period mini-jammed "one last breath" .. after school..... haix.... nothing to sae ready la.. what ish not mine.. it shall stay that wae.. or so it seems...? keeping my heart open.. should i ? expose meself to more hurt? and pain? or shud i just... go awae? am i living on false hope? maybe i am. haix. can u awnser this question please? = ( i beat bout 6 red lights on the wae home just now... just feels wonderful... soaring thru the air on my bike like that.. very..... free.. but once it stops, youre brutally brought back to earth.. haha haix. Gee. dad is behind me. as usual.. theyre trying to read what im typing. what ever la. so.. till tomorrow.. bYe~ sKud. ary - skidded off the path @ 10:09 PM
Happy for all those people who are happy... Stay happy you guys... =) Fone got confisicated again this afternoon. Bloody hell. im too tired to fight back ready la. Let her take the fone. Let her read thru my smses. Let her do funny funny stuff to it. i dont give a bloody fuck animore. Guess i wont be with a fone till im 18.. then im going to sign up for a line..then gonna use it like fucking no one cares. muahahaha... like i said. i pay the bills. i get to do what i want. got my "lifeline" this morning. Was staring at them for the whole morning. then it hit me. wahaha. im never gonna get it. never in my dreams. hahaha. so why should i fucking care eh? wahaha. not the usual me rite now. waiting for fahmy to arrive. then can go study together. tomorrow got geog test. must pass. listening to "numb - LKP Metora" on my diskman... repeating the track over and over again. gee.. i wonder if fahmy's already at Bk... caught in the undertone, just caught in the undertone.. Every step that i take is another mistake from you... haix. im damn bored. with home. with love. with everything. oh what the fuck. Bye. SkuD. ary - skidded off the path @ 7:24 PM
i got tired with mom being at me neck. tired of hearing say im a useless person in that motherfucking house. im just so fucking tired of everything. Gee. and it had to be a fucking sundae. so here i am. stormed out of the house without telling her where i went. she wouldnt acknowledge me aniwae. guess she was too busy jumping to crappy fucked up conclusions. Fahmy's on the other side of the com. hes updating his uj i guess.. cant really see him from here. haix.. i don know when i want to go back. gee. maybe i should let her experience the house without me in it.. maybe she'll feel much more peaceful. i hope so. im so fucking tired of this. she went thru my fone again. i dont care what she thinks bout my sms. i dont care if she scolds me for chalking up 800 smses the previous month. i dont give a fuck animore. its my life. i pay the bills. i get to do what i want. and its just 800. wonder what she'll do if i hit 1000... *evil thoughts*... The DJ over at downtown east here playing some charlie's angel's theme song thinge. how i wish they could play evanescence.. muahaha.. Yesterdae had another sleepless nite...where memories come floodin back to me. haix.. girl.. u dont need to know so much. heartbreak ish a common occurance in my daily life. and i do not wish to waste my breath here telling the whole world what happened. just know...that your special. your someone special in my life. *(they're playing get busy by sean paul)*...and that.. haix.. dont need to noe so much la.. just meant to be forgotton sooner or later..... gee.... im tired.. haix... haha...fahmy just called me on my fone.. he's apparently looking for me.... when im like.... 10 feet awae from him.. hahhahaha... Guess i'll leave it here la... wanna forget that i have a family *pui~!* at home... so ... goodbye people~~! take care of yerselves... till next time.. SkuD. ary - skidded off the path @ 3:38 PM
i caNT faIInnNTTT , the WaE i dId bEfOre... DOnT tURn YoUR baCK oN me~ i WoNT be iGnORrReeEddd~!!! ary - skidded off the path @ 7:15 PM
just got back from sch... speech dae parade rehearsal thinge... went okae... voice abit sore... but... other than that im cool... =) been feeling sadded for the past few daes ... but who the heck cares.. haha... just have to take it all in my stride... all in my stride.... look... i dont care about anything that concerns feelings, hearts or emotions anymore... im devoid of such feelings.. at least for now... at least for now.........i would never know, myself until i do this on my own , and i would never feel anything else until my wounds are healed, i would never be , anything till i break awae from me, i will break awae , i'll find myself todae~ home has been hell for me these past few weeks... just have to get used to it... wadeva... least theres some peace and quiet ... like rite now... when noone's home... la la la la la.... yesterdae played soccer got the ball smashed into me face... wahaha... fun... man im bored... haix... okae.. i'll go find something to eat..goodbye people... take care~ keep ur head up guys~ bubye~ ¤ sCud ¤ ary - skidded off the path @ 7:14 PM |
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:: skud silent screams :: me i_c_3@hotmail.com :: you Sometimes,
you think you know so much about me. You think you finally did break the
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