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---------------------------- Firstly.. i wanna sae sorry to someone.. coz i sort of pissed her off two daes ago.. been selfish... didnt think bout how u felt... sorry fer saying wadever i said on msn... just that.. i wasnt in the right state of mind to handle stuff like that.. with everything flying around me.... im sorry.... aysygsy~ im sowwie.... ----------------------------- Secondly i want to apologise fer offending someone with what i wrote in one of my earlier blog entries... i really didn't think bout what i wrote.. i shud have thought bout it... coz the one im targeting this to wasnt gonna read my blog... ever... and i'm sorry fer everything... and no .. i'm not daoing u la... i come in then u sign out... how like that?? =) ----------------------------- Parents are out.. i dunnow where they went.. sejak duer hari lalu... buk berdoa ... semoga Allah hentikan aper aper yg tengah terjadi di dalam hidup buk nie... Alhamdullilah.. dah mula nampak perubahan. selepas semalam.. mereka sudah bermula memberi penghormatan kepada each other... and thankiu sya ... fer listening to my ramblings... fer being my "punchbag" .. *sowwiieeee*... fer just being there... and i'm sorry kalau i pissed u off that malam... buk tengah sort... tak pikeh tul tul.... sowwie.... and thankiu to fis[h] who was there to listen to my stewpid ramblings... thankiu veh veh much~ =D ... keep ur head up girl~! =) haven talked to her fer a veh long time.. haix.. i wanna get rid of all the stuff in my inbox... just went thru wadeva that was inside just now... bring back memories... haha.. but again... u learn from ur memories... so... haiya.. wadeva la... bro's sleeping peacefully in his room.. house is so dark.. so quiet.. haix... i wanna kill whoever thats doing this to my family. I wud seriously kill that person. becoz of her*bitch* everythings happening now... i dun care if im hanged or anithing. ijustwanttokillthatspasticbastard. im tired... will go on thinking till bout 2... goodnite ppl... say a prayer before u sleep... it will do wonders.. till next time... goodbye.... ssKyuaD ary - skidded off the path @ 11:57 PM
can't sleep tonite~ 11.35... mom's out... dad's out... bro's asleep... sleepless in sg.. thats me.... haven been feeling good lately...think i'm coming down with fever..haha.. waddaheck... watching "Midnight Run" on channel I... crappy show... wahaha.. but then nothing else to watch... tired... think i need some sleep...can't sleep.. haix... house so dark... so cold... very.... empty..... been thinking alot lately...thought bout life.. bout money.. bout o's , bout where i wanna go...... been thinking bout the past too... wahaha... now i noe why ppl called me stupid & foolish... now i finally know... i've seen the other side of u ... and i don't really like it.. but who am i to comment eh? i'm nothing but a guy standing on the sidelines, watching u go fer boy after boy after boy.. okae... wadevar... man i'm starting to feel hungry... okae guys... guess i'll go now.. stardie hard ppl... a few more weeks and it'll all be over.... till next time~ see ya~ sKuD ary - skidded off the path @ 11:39 PM
ary - skidded off the path @ 10:04 PM
God i'm so tired. Wonder if i'll break down soon... morning 8 a.m. study at airport... stop at 2 then straight to work... get off at 6 , go home, break fast... then continue studying till 10... eff eff eff... but then.. this whole thing will end in just 3 weeks time... have to endure... have to endure...... haven't heard from lotsa ppl lately... i lost my effing fone. i need to find a new fone i need to find a new fonnneeee..... haix... eff eff eff. haven heard from wini.. haven heard from sya... haven heard from lati.. haven heard from khalil.. haven heard from yan... wonder how they're doing.... yesterdae was freakdae. waited for effing azharudeen for 2 whole effinghours. pissed me off real bad. pure asshole. if YOU dont want to come then have the fucking curtersie to fucking tell me. bloody hell. made me wait ferever. somore effing donwan to pick up fone. that wad the fuck is your fone for asshole? i hope you fucking read this.Apparently you can't be effing trusted. parents don't allow me to turn the tv on. wadever.. guess i'll just go sleep after this.. lotsa things been happening since mondae this week. lotsa lotsa things....... looking forward to 21st November.. want to get this shit over with soon... so tired........ guess i'll go now bye ppl.. take care~ SkuD ary - skidded off the path @ 10:01 PM
ary - skidded off the path @ 7:57 PM
haha~ first of all, i would like to congtatulate LaTi for making it to the Korea tkD thinge~ haha~ *ConGraTs* Gd LuCk ~! okae.. past few daes haven been "living" ... ( who does aniwaes? ) morning wake up.. go skool... back at 2... eat bathe.. then back to studying at BK DtE... nah... not complaining... just that... find it boring sometimes... hmm... lately haven been doing lotsa stuff... haven been going online... haven been updating this blog... haven been listening to musik... haven been calling ppl.... hmmm.. but looking on the bright side, i now know why Israel fought with Jordan, why Singapore Restructured its industry and stuff bout Tourism.... =) thats an acheivement kkae!!! =D yesterdae someone told me that TP was opening its classes to Olevel and A level students... so went over to TP with khalil this afternoon.. wahaha... found out those classes didn't exist at all.... so trudged all the wae back to BK to study... waddaheck... (Bloody Lion Dance playing fer some y stupid restaurant opening... GRrRRR... they're blowing my effing eardrums... ) fasting month coming soon... last dae that i can savour Bk's triple chocolate pie will be on SunDae... haiix... haha... but nahmind... my bDae coming soon too~ =D Buk Mole just arrived at BK... wahahaha... he was supposed to be here around siX... y eff... the lion dance ppl are getting on my effing nerves.. warGh. bloody hell im bored bored bored bored bored bored.... mmm... okae... so nothing esle to write... see ya guys ... SkUd ary - skidded off the path @ 7:56 PM
ary - skidded off the path @ 7:39 PM
grrrr.... hello ppl... sorry havent been updating fer quite some time... been busy with admin stuff and life.. so finally im out of dSs... now on study leave... wahaha... can wake up at 9 every morning instead of 6.... *bLiSs* hehe~ went to MjC open house yesterdae... didnt see much.. didnt get much info bout that place... only know that.. it has bowling as its cCa... okae... going to syA's piT later.. wonder wad im gonna do there... lucky that shaiful coming along ar... dont want to be the only sec 4 there... lightbulber... hMmM... dad's snoring at the couch..they're supposed to be off to class round 2 liddat.. haiya... heck la... GrrR... my prepaid still no value..... grRrR hmm... went to skool this mornign fer dT... haha.. only 6 ppl turned up... wahaha... pooR chang... looked so stressed liddat.... now online... clicking no one.. been reading blogs... will continue to read blogs... got nothing to do.. so i guess i'll just scram... aniwaes~ who u sKuD ary - skidded off the path @ 1:33 PM
just got back from perc freaks wit fauzi... now online.. alone at home.. talking to fis.. aiyo... haix haix... *smile geRl... i'm sure everything will be okae~ kae? =)* o's getting nearer... wanna study but todae been feeling like sh*t... haix... dunnoe why... haven been updating me blog fer quite some time... haven been reading other ppl's either~ haha~ erm wini~ ... ur blog ar... the casino advertisement jams my com one... so everytime wanna read will end up restarting the com... =S saturdae.. house empty... so damn quiet... so much stuff been happening the past week... mon was wini's bdae... tues ... aiyah shit lar... all fucked up.. i dont care animore. not the usual me now. so bloody fucked up. eff eff eff eff eff eff eff effffff. haix... just take whatever God Throws at me. i dont give a damn animore. click me if u want to. i dont give a damn animore. ------------------------ haix.. wad did i do wrong now? why is everybody pissed? i'm tired of making the peace. im tired of looking at alter ego's... i'm tired of having to be stuck in the middle... why cant i just be who i am? no point lying. no point talking. no point negotiating. i give up on love. i give up on hoping to be loved. i give up on fucking everything. i dont care whether u'll hate me rite now... i dont give a damn coz i want to be who i want to be rite now. just tell me straight in the face u hate me. i can take it. i dont care animore. youre different now. i used to wuv talking to you. i used to wuv spending time listening to ur antics. i used to wuv how u brought yourself. but now.. i dunnow why... i think i have made quite an early conclusion about who u really are. now i see... what they've been telling me... its true. i've been standing up for you. God. How wrong i was. all that time wasted. all the lies been told. looking back on all the things u said.. was it all....... lies? sKuD ary - skidded off the path @ 6:23 PM
was talking to lati just now.. mmm.. now she needs to go cook fer her family~ so i'll just sit tight and wait~ =) hmm... come to think of it... i haven't been dropping by and saying hello to me close fwens... been too busy but .. thats not an excuse... haix... hmm.. will make it up... will make it up... havent been mugging lately... this week me chose not to touch any books... yet... so.. gonna be starting tomorrow onwards... starting withh... social StuDs bk 3... argh... mmmmmm... i'm bored... mom washing dishes ... dad dunnoe doing wad... haiya... called sya just now.. wahaha... her voice sooo different on the fone... more... softer? haha~ havent seen her online lately too.. wonder where she's gone... hmmmmmmm... haha~ tomorrow's wini's bdae~! hmm.. means have to carry that biG boX with that thing inside all the wae to skool~ haha~ hope she likes it though... =S nothing much been happening... got my grad cert on fri... will be leaving dunman soon... haha... so much happened in the past 4 years... from an immature a**holic jerk *literally*, to who i am now... haha~ okae okae i wont start rambling again.. sheesh... nothing good on tv... yet.. may be switching it on later at nite... till then .. i'll guess i'll just sit tight and wait... take care ppl~ =D sKuD ary - skidded off the path @ 9:03 PM
this morning got my stiches removed without anestatic.. cool... the nurse just kept on cutting and cutting... seemed like forever... then she went ... " Wah! two stiches per hole ar? your cut very deep issit " bloody hell.. i just groaned la... aniwaes.. the wound was like ... i dunnoe la.. haven close properly yet... then she applied some yellow gooey stuff... aiyah... yah la.. mmm... then went to penin... got stuff... lunged it around.. the back home... *bOinK* tIred... see ya guys later... and fish... keep ur head up girl~! =D takecare~ sKud ary - skidded off the path @ 9:02 PM
got home from skool 2 hours ago... been lazing around since... been a hectic dae at skool... 6.45am was already in the effing hall arranging effing chairs.. and apparently i effing forgot bout my promise.... *sowwie lati....sowwwwiiieee*... then walked round the whole school with Mr Sukiman looking fer chairs coz there wasnt enuf in the hall... ended up finishing wad i was supposed to do durin recess... was soo tired wanted to zonk out in class... but councillors asked me to shoo... so went down instead... the school as usual... nothing much happened... didnt get back anithing todae... after school had to take charge of the grad ceremony hallplan thing... lucki they were ... not ... hard to control... wud have screamed coz was at breaking point just then... now online ... talking to sya... dunch noe wads wrong with her... seems to be feeling very low... hmm... haix... now she's off dunnoe go where... lynn just clicked me jsut now.. apparently had to redo the powerpoint thinge... haha... called chihan ... somehow he was talking to huey syan and i got into the fone call... so romantic one.. wahaha.. crap crap crap... removing my stitches on sat... *brrr* mom out wid dad... so hungry... may go cook later... now just contented to laze around... haiz.. okae... shall go now... take care ppl... SkUD ary - skidded off the path @ 7:03 PM |
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:: skud silent screams :: me i_c_3@hotmail.com :: you Sometimes,
you think you know so much about me. You think you finally did break the
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