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ary - skidded off the path @ 9:54 PM
lotsa stuff been happening inside these past few hours.. from the freaking minute i got home to rite now..if been effed upside down enough this week havent i? gosh i need to talk to someone.. =( but i'll hold it in as usual and bottle it all up and release it tonite.. lalala.. now i know how it feels like to be left in the dark.. now i know.. eff. eff. eff. skynite.. lynn used to sae that to me.. its been a while since i last had a skynyte..can i have one tonite? i dun care if its alone.. i just want to be left alone.. can't you freaking ppl who call me your freaking son get off my back? can u just go away? just vanish from my life? can u? please? all i need is her.. but.. haish... lalalalalala... maybe i shud go out and take another long walk tonite.. get those bloody bastards to shut up before i can go freaking home.. when she'll be home so i can talk to her.. fuck am i alwaes this fucking pathetic? somebodyhelpme. somebodyhelpmefuckthishouseupsidedown. somebodyfuckinghelpme! =) it seems that when i smile in the middle of being effed up i get even more messed.. hahahahahahahahaha... ha. ha. ha. ha. can u help me? please? FUCK IT!i think i shall go out now. i shall go somewhere peaceful. ha.ha.ha. ary - skidded off the path @ 9:53 PM
veh bored.. no one to talk to... earlier was abit off... emotional turmoil they wud sae~ haish.. hate me home.. wadeva wadeva.. this morning went over to tP to sign up fer DAE...then wanted to spend time with bella but then no time to spend... so ate and then went tm and then went home..haish....miss her... not now feeling that good..stomach hurting mind messy =S but will be okae once the bitch stop bitching...grrr...wadeva.. haish.. tomorrow morning must go to work.. shit man shit man shit man. lalalalalaa..now mom on the freaking fone gossip gossip talk talk...haish.. stupid la... can't wait fer dear to finish wadeva stuff she's doing... then can ease me mind and talk to her... for the time being.. i shall stare at this screen and wait.. skudoUt- [stay.away.from.us] ary - skidded off the path @ 10:34 PM
haish..hello people.. parents at it again... =( nahmind... more important issues at hand~ =P first up~ i wUV bElla~! haha~ =P *mwah* haha~ yeah and.i.miss.her.so.darn.much!. haish~ =P mm~ todae was ookae..got screwed at work coz was abit blur.. hate hot tempered ppl la.. abit do wrong only want to shout like noone's business..hey... its only my fourth dae at work kae..of course la i havent really got used to stuff there.. dammit man.. mm..now installing the new version of msn..dunno wad crap la..forced installation seh... =s mmm..dun feel like watchin ami animore.. snuggle..want that..want snuggles.. haish.. wad am i saying... =S she cant go out tmr... haish haish haish... now i dont feel like doing anithing animore.. =( mm.. stuff running in my head.. messing up my braaaaiiinnn... =( i wanna go into CMM Dammit!!!! -sKuDmesseDout-Peace [tension.is.building.inside.steadily] -lkP ruLez.. ary - skidded off the path @ 11:19 PM
mm~ nothing much yesterdae...only that i slept and slept and slept.. =S pastu takleh layan bella.. =S sowwiee... don't know why i was so darn sleepy... =s haish... nothing much happening these daes...only that.. yeah.. i got a job.. with a logistics company.. assisting deliveries and stuff... cool cool... at least now got $$ can spend rite? =P haha~ can't wait for poly to start... =D then at least can do smth nice for a change~ =p stardeeing.. wahaha.. must have gone crazy eh? studying ish something nice? =S haha~ aiyah.. im still quite blur rite now coz its 640 in the morning and i haven't eaten my breakfast yet... mmm .. okae... i guess i'll just stop here... till next time.. peace... aRywUVsajA sKuDout- [i.shall.go.without.sleep.tonite.] ary - skidded off the path @ 6:52 AM
mm...todae was a very..tiring day.. in the morning went to kick balls at tan's house with the usual ppl.. didn't play long..had to get home by noon fer classes.. which was an extreme bore as usual... hmm...glad that everything's okae over at dear's place...which reminds me.. yesternite i was cornered by mum... sort of.. terrorized me...said dear's parents called her and stuff.. haish.. parents making stuff difficult fer us both.. but mom finally grew tired and she went "gasak kau lah anak..yg penting aku tak encourage kau dan jangan gi overboard sudah..kau pandai pandai jager muker mak bapak kau eh" then i was like.. yeah..haha..wadeva~ =P then.. smsed dear... got her all worried.. =s sowwie.. =s haish haish haish.. hmm.. now watching the last last part of the prince of egypt.. veh nice..wuv the song.. i need chocolates.. argh... darn i'll update more soon~ peace out ppl~ =) skuDouT- ary - skidded off the path @ 9:16 PM
haish... online now.. helpin nutz with her blog~ mm~ hope it turns out okae soon~ =) mm~ dearie's jamming i guess.. haish...can't follow her aniwhere... haish.. nahmind.. i'll just bear with it... grrr...just now went to tm with fau and mie..they wanted to go to that tM arcade..hostility as usual...just tagged along ar...then after that talked to bella abit before coming to this wretched place..haish.. stupid la.. lazing around doing nothink... i've got a stupid effed up. oh nebermind. feeling anger hatred sadness inside now..nak let it all out but can't find the right stuff to do..can't scream can't go out can't hit... haish... keep it all insidddee... taaaaakkkeeee everythinggg on the insidee and throw it all awaaaayyyy coz i sweaarr... for the last timee, i wont trust myself with youuuuuu.. tension is building inside steadily haish... wonder wad i can do in this stupid place todae... cant sms coz i've overshot.. can't call coz got no one~ :p arhhh~ everyones havin funnnnnnnn!!! =( sucks sucks sucks. haiz..maybe i'll go watch tv or something... i'll see you guys later.. bye ppl sKuDoUT- [keepeverythinginside.takeitallaway.] ary - skidded off the path @ 3:56 PM
hmms.. todae has been a very..... eventful and tiring dae... haish... in the morning went over to safra to so some stuff with dad... but then the office was closed.. then went to return fliers with ikan...after which i was very very stupid and misunderstood lotsa stuff.. im sorry dear.. if ive caused so much hurt to ya.. im sowwie.... *muah* haish..don want to elaborate on that here.. important thing is i've realised that i have to put myself in other's shoes before comprehending anythink that is on my mind... sounds.. funny~ =p aniwaes~ later on went back to dmn fer speech dae! haha~ met up with ppl lyk jiewei (chong!) kezhan xiaofen debbie yan bla bla bla.. aiseh.. muihia dinstinctive dunmanite~ cool cool...then listened to band play~ and choir too~ haha~ dunnoe la... heard from ppl since 03'batch graduated dmn like boring ready.. i dun noe how true ish that.. haha~ heck cares~ =p thennnn after that~! met Mr ChaNG! gD ol' mR chang! haha~ still blurry as ever!! hahahaha~ man i missed him...took down my phone number and said he'll call me later~ haha~ man i miss 4E03... haish...all those ramblings by misskoh, all that funny lafter from my chang..how misseslim kept on droning and droning.. how i used to dread wearing that white uniform everydae... haish.. nostalgic ar buk~ =p theeennn~ sent bella home~ =p dear nyanyukkk!! haha~ told me she dropped her keys somewhere when it was at the dressers all along~ =p awak ni eh~ memang arr.. haha~ dah nyanyuk~ =p mmmmm~ went to 7-11 to drool on strawberry cheesecake!! =p haha~ okae okae so we were hungry~ =p mm~ tomorrow's gd fridae..dunnoe whether im able to roam or be stuck with my parents...hopefully its the former... haish...i dont want to be stuck with my parents going to some mushy exhibition or smth~ =S haha~ wheEe!! shes here!! iwuvheriwuvheriwuvherrr!!! so i'll update later~ see ya ppl~ skDouT [maskingeverythingsadtthashappened] ary - skidded off the path @ 11:10 PM
hmm... just now went fer med checkup with bella~ haha~ aiseyman..met shahmi , his couzin, ruiting , her fwen , roddy over there.. like.. everyone chose to go fer that checkup then~ =P somore veh funny la the people there... eG : Nurse: boy, cover ur right eye.. i want to test ur left eye... me : maam, left eye glass eye... Nurse: noo... cover ur right eyeee... want to see ur left eye.. me : maam, left eye glass eye equal blind~ Nurse : coverr... eh? blind? oh oh.. sorry sorry.. haha~ somore the doc also soD one.. i went in and he was playing with his hp... then i saw not only one but 3 nokia color phones~ then that guy play ard... placed the pump thinge and pumped it soo hard.. haha.. then he was like " .. hehehe...get on the bed..." coz he wanted to check on me tummy.. had that sly look on his face.. haha~ soD! but in the end he was like.. "mm.. lacs ah fella.. joking only.. wads life without humour eh?" haha~ cool cool~ then after that spend q.time then zoomed over to bedok to buy that casing i wanted so bad~ =p mmm~ then went over to easpoint ate marshmellows and choc~! =P haha~ there lotsa minahs from the neighbouring school... very... eurgh. haish... then sent bella home... ryte now theres no food in the house.. im too lazy to cook.. so i guess i'll just wait till mom gets back...grr.. man im hungry... wondering how u ppl have been doing... and when ish mOe gonna send me my appeal replyyyyy!! wads takin em sooo bloody long seh... =S haish... o yah.. fish *blOop* keep ur head up kae? =) SkuDOuT. ary - skidded off the path @ 5:39 PM
lotsa stuff been happening these daes..had arguments..spent quality time...got soaked in the rain..got blisters...lotsa things..lotsa things.. haish..been tryna look for a job... to no avail..can someone help me? hmm.. been tryna change bad stuff inside me.. havent been eating solid food lately... instant mee..Lj's..kFc.. mac d..everything but rice.. it sucks having no cash to spend. suck suck suck! gRrrrrrrrr... haish.. im tired... nyte ppl... SKuDout. ary - skidded off the path @ 10:44 PM |
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