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hey~ supposed to be studying fer supp today.. the hunger got the better of me.. slept past sahur ..but no worries.. two more hours to go.. feeling lousy.. fear of failing my engmath supp lingering in my mind.. wad if i don't scrape thru? means.. next yr will be takin engmath 1 and 2 at the same time.. freak..how am i supposed to pull that off? damn.. too tired to think ready..been missing stuff and people...not that i've got no time to catch up wid dem though... finally got to jam two days back..relished dat moment seh..haha~ and there was a group of eastview sec students outside our room looking thru the window... so there we were like some seasoned band rockin their b*lls off.. haha~ oyah.. there was yan,fian,edris and me yeah..haha~ sometimes wad hurts most is seeing the person u miss so much say goodbye once again.. haha~ just some random thoughts in my head... can't stay long here~ tAg me! TaG me tag me TaG mee!!! skuD-out. ary - skidded off the path @ 4:27 PM
gosh..blog hopping again..stuff i read... =s *shudders* i am not going to ever "fall in love" anytime soon.. or anytime later fer the record. shiT! is there really such a thing as falling in love right now??? ha! (no offence to u guys who are blissfully in luv yeah?) *shakes head* what the hell is the world coming to.. forgive but dont forget? yeah.. i totally understand.. but dont rake it up again days,months,weeks,years later.. issn't it only gonna bring more hurt? forgivin and forgetting doesnt necessarily make u weaker. sometimes, it just makes you wiser .. yeah? urgh. dont influence other people to hate the someone you hate so freaking bad.. hey .. who knows? maybe when u really think back about sum bad incident between u and the other party, aren't BOTH of you at fault? people do change mind you. most people i know change fer the better. shallow ones just change fer the worst. sheesh.. besides, u don't gain respect by doing so do you? respect fer making other people be wary about the other party,only to find out that wad u said isn't the way it seems to be? just give the person a chance to be who he wants to be.. and wads gonna hurt most.. is when the one u're tryna influence.. is actually someone who the other party is close to..someone the other party freaking cares about so much. its just gonna make the other party feel like crap and f*ck off. or is that what you're tryna do? wads the point? shallow satisfaction? People do change. i change. just think about it will ya? try to think it like how other people would have thought about it. u call me childish? i hav to admit, i AM a hyperventilated fella. i can't sit still fer more than an hour..heck, some people even say i dont look my age. but who the fuck cares? why should i care? they can think wadever they want. it doesnt make me any uglier does it? and sheesh! turning ur back away from something so as to avoid urself from blowing up is considered CHildish? wtF? just... urgh... just reflect back and think about it since ur "mature" yeah? God. i don't understand why stuff turns out the way it does sometimes. ha~ and fer the record.. im not pissed or frustrated or shit.. i'm too tired to feel that way.. im just.. disgusted..and.. sick and tired of it..tt's all.. Tag me about what u guys think yeah? skud-out matrock, aku nak jam lagik ah. ary - skidded off the path @ 8:48 AM
chill ah u guys!!! (and girl) bulan ramadhan beb.. relac relac.. see wad loves does? hmm~ Now i believe in my perspective of love even stronger... ha! (".) skud-oUt ary - skidded off the path @ 8:57 PM
ary - skidded off the path @ 11:55 AM
supposed to be studying fer endofyr examsbut heck..I don't care nemore.. gosh..and im supposed to sit fer 3 papers in like 4 hrs time.. and nothing meaninful has been goin into my head.. gonna go over to mobius later..havta be there coz a promise is a promise.. =) not that I don't want to go though.. see. i shudnt have had itchy fingers and turned on this comp..ah.. goshfeelinglousyfeelinglousyfeelinglousssyyyyyy...=( sumone whisk me sms me take me awayyy... sheesh..i dun want to be retained again this next yr..its bad enuf if im being retained fer three freaking yrs..its even worst that im being retained at sec2 level. freak. argh. wtf.wtf wtf!!!!!! haven't called anione in a while..hp has been silennttt je.. haha..when it comes it comes eh? hmm..yesternite whilst slacking and eating the hershey's sundae pie i stole from the freezer beside the crew rm someone asked me if i would ever believe in love..i asked why..she said coz she doesnt understand why im hating love so much..simple question..but it left me thinkin..i dont hate love. i just dont believe in teenage love at the time being with no offence to u guys out there who are blissfully in love..but i do believe in feelings though..contradicting la..=S when i care fer somone i guess i care more than i love that kinda thing understand? then she asked.."means ur stating that u wud rather be close friends then hav an intimate relationship?" yeah..u cud put it that way..id rather have a close sister than a girlfriend..coz when i cant handle a rltnshp and get entangled...it'll be the same as just destroying myself and the other party..so why bother hmm? made mistakes last time not gonna go thru it again. why does tonight have to end? why dont we hit restart and pause it at our favourite parts.. if i cud have it my way i would turn the car around.. and runaway... just you and i... i need more sundae pies. and if matrock's reading this...kiter goyang kaki lac pat kedai kopi sua eh beb? hahahahahhahah~ tag me anione? skudouT- ary - skidded off the path @ 9:24 AM
gonna go over ta mobius's ex tmr evenin after class..shud have gone fer it yesterday and skipped work...last nite was rainin darn heavily.. had trouble going home... =S stupid me went to eat at tamp instead of catching the last bus home.. soooooo....had to trudge all the way home in the rain...haha~ been quite some time since i did that... fuct...havta go to work at six... last nite while waiting got to crash in on yan's house.. (both yans by the way..haha~ ) got to jam on their guitars...can't wait to go full blown jammin.. cant wait to hit the drums.. this morning..woke up feeling weird as a result of yesternite's dream...then started thinking whilst lying on my bed with it drizzling outside and the whole room being engulfed in yellow light... haha~im crapping...the room's yellow coz i've got yellow curtains and when u draw em the light shines thru those curtains and the room goes all yellow yeah. monday ria and co wants to buker pat luar...celebrate mazia's bdae stuff liddat....dunnow if i can make it..dunnow if... ah nevermind..i'll get back to ya as soon as possible kae ria? *hUg* haish..im tired of thinking and im tired of staying awake.. gonna go slack in front of the telly now... sKud-out we drive tonyte, and u are by my side.. we're talking about our lives , like we've known each other forever and time flies by , with the sound of your voice.. its close to paradise, with the end surely near.. and if only i could stop the car and hold on to you, i'll never let go. f*** life. ary - skidded off the path @ 4:10 PM
yesternite didnt go too well.. did so much freaking stuff in kitchen.. some ass ordered 13 meals..in the middle of the night somore.. =S ah well... just some werds going thru my head ~ and if i could only stop the car and hold on to you.. i'll never let go~ i'll never let go~ dah..orgtu jangan teraser eh.. i wanna go play pool. i wanna go play pool i wanna go play pooooolllllll and jam. haha~ might be goign to shwini's mobius exhibition later..someone please tell me where the eff is nanyang acad of fine arts..too lazy to open up map..see if i'll be able to wake up later.. =s come to think of it .. havent been thinking much these past few days. haha~ the irony..i've got to take on a day at a time.. no point thinking to far at this time..maybe later in the month i'll start to "strategise" my upcoming sem..gonna go focus on my studies..speaking of which..gonna get my results via sms tmr.. (".) *crosses fingers*..haha..i miss pool and i miss the person i'd love to play pool with.. haha.. i miss ncc..i miss my fellow cadets..ah.. if i'd list out the whole list of what im missin it'll prolly take up a whole book..but whats the point of missing stuff when i can't do anithing about it huh? mm..buzzme soon aite sis? WTF!! aiseh.. i finished typing out that sentence and my fone rings!.. SMS of my exam results.. argh.. flunked math.. here's it : TCS R/W : Z Electronic prototyping : C+ Circuit analysis : B Digi Funds : C+ Eng Math : F PSPS : P INET comp Fund : B+ APEL 1: P yah.. so theres it.. flunked math.. darn.. was hoping to scrape thru.. but nahmind.. will try harder..dont want to repeat eng math.. nahuh.. no...=S scraped thru elecprototyping i guess..haha~ yeah...ah.. so much fer my results..hope u guys havin better smses yeah? l8er.. sKUd- ary - skidded off the path @ 2:42 PM
mm~ slept fer a few hours last nite.. and now im back here in front of the screen..supposed to be mugging fer exams on sun... but.. heck lah.. been tryna find cash fast..haha~ any ideas anyone? hmm..the fasting month's here..but somehow.. it doesn't feel like im fasting..maybe there's a meaning behind it? *deep thought* been missin drums , music lately.. ohwell.. update later.. skud- ary - skidded off the path @ 7:55 AM
mm~ havent been on msn fer quite some time.. been busy workin... overnyte shifts the whole week, sleeping till late afternoons and stuff.. haha~ currently blasting jet's are u gonna be my girl~ haha~ love that song~ yeah..gosh..starting to go short on cash.. need moneyyyy!! arghhh! bill came this month.. haha~ wth.. nahmindl a.. aniwaes~ im back~! haahaahaha~ and i dont care about what u do no more~! wahahahaha~ okay basically im crapping .. yeah~ haha~ oake i dono wad to update.. basically missing someone.. haha yeah.. so bye~! ary - skidded off the path @ 1:44 AM
hope ur feeling better sis.. =S better take care aite~ =S *HuG* mm~ yesterdae was supposed to mug but then mugged till 5 den dunno how i fell asleep on the couch... saddening... haha~ five more minutes before i head off fer my paper.. darn.. gonna finish it in an hour or so.. dont wanna spend much time wrecking my brain~ haha~ yesteryesterday (which is two days ago yeah? ) played pool with nini and lala~! haha~ aiseh.. fast learner seh... haha~ i think she beat me @ the second game i think~ haha~ yeah.. had fun la~ only to be chased out later~ hMm... okae okae.. gotta run.. update more l8er... skudOut- ary - skidded off the path @ 1:24 PM
yeah.. hi ppl.. had quite a day.. dead tired.. this morning went to skool to submit my report... which eventually i forgot to submit coz i was too busy watching "Tears of the Sun" in the library.. damn.. then met suf at LvL4.. ate lunch after that.. haha.. then got really bored so instead of studying decided to call Edris up and jaM.. ah.. my hands flew today... now i've got blisters..let all the anger out on those drums.. haha.. and yan let his fingers fly on bass.. and Edris played "beaR" on his guitar.. haha~ for once everyone was playing and screaming like God knows how.. haha.. after all that everyone was damn freaking thirsty.. =s sOoOo.. decided to lepak at the koffe shop fer awhile.. hmm.. im still worried.. =s argH..i need to see an academic advisor real quick!! need him/her to write me a letter for cLt course thinge.. =s damn damn damn... hmm.. increasingly worried.. but she's online so she shud be okae~ =s yeah hope so.. aiz- better go .. see ya sKudout- ary - skidded off the path @ 1:26 AM |
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