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when will you ever learn ? oh when oh whennn will you ever ever ever learn? * s i g h * "today's assignment~ erhem.. kiCksomeaSS!" ary - skidded off the path @ 12:56 PM
ha~ 945 and im at the school libbb.. haha~ today i started the day in a way i hadn't started any day fer a lonngggg time.. i woke up at 7.. in other words, tak tido pas suboh.. haa.. u shud've seen my determination tryna drag my butt from my bed into the showerr.. haha~ and class started at 9 okae... so yada yada-ed.. bloody hell they didnt put up any notice to tell us that the shuttle bus service pick-up point had shifted.. so i waited like a stupid twerp beside DBS.. only to find out i had to wait at the main road. blardy hell.. ok at least i reached school at 9.. on the dot.. but heyyy! it gets better! class was cancelled. =_=' i swear im never gonna wake up early again. ha! anihoots - gonna go bloghop till 11. skud-Out ary - skidded off the path @ 9:45 AM
today i was totally fucting disgusted by what i found out. yo adam my bro. u agree wid me yeah? and i tot only boys were egoistic. im gonna add another element to my hate list soon : people who think they freakign pretty when deep inside theyre actually shitboxes. yes shitboxes. No i dont give a fuckin damn if u think im talking bout you. I stand up fer what i fuckin believe in. so if you dont like it, eff off. No , You dont go strutting around thinking you're pretty when ur not and telling other ppl u can get all the guys u want. Thats total shit in the head. urgh.. im just totally dis-gusted. fer all the respect that i had fer you im perfectly glad to say u've wiped it ALL out. and im not regretting anithing. ha. I stand up fer what i believe in. so dont come to me and spit at me in the face coz it wont do any good. =) skUd- ps. Hi queen! ary - skidded off the path @ 11:19 PM
i'll tell you. i hav a limit. and when u step over that line, ull see hell. no relation to earlier entry. ary - skidded off the path @ 2:48 AM
hyperred tonyte.. haha~ prolly cos of that tehkatai (?) i drank wid yan and fian.. been quite some time since got to lepak wid dem.. haha ~ all cos of the fact i lost my "other half".. and me being uncontactable. sheeshhh.. ahhaha~ im just me. don't judge me by the way i look. ugly people does NOT mean bad people. attitude-showing (i got show attitude meh? eff off.) ?? do i show attitude? hahaa~ and when people smile it doesnt necessarily mean he's happy inside. no im not talking about me. understand those around you la. one day its gonna come back at ya.. gossiping? nah.. it's more like.. anger ventilation. ha! haha~ and queeen.. if i cant get u the malaysia ones , matau wid me kae? (= haha~ andd update arrr!!! =p missing ya kak.. said u wud update meee.. tak pooonnn.. haha~ ohwell.. hope u had fun~ =) tak fairrr.. i was stuck at school... *sticks out tongueee* on a more serious note, what struck me most today was the fact that people can be.. oh i duno. i cudnt resist the temptation of eavesdropping on the couple behind me while i was in the bus earlier.. (translated) Guy : u, im going fer ns soon.. will you promise me u'll be mine always? Girl : of course la.. u dont trust me? Guy : i dont know (stupid. den why become her bf in the first place) you're pretty.. many guys out there will surely want to get to know you.. wad if u find someone else? Girl : you love me? Guy : Yah.. but, you know, ns is a long time.. ok prove to me you'll be mine always. Girl : ( i didnt look back but i think she gave him a kiss on the cheek). Girl : How? Guy : *whispers whispers* ok im assuming this but i have a feeling he asked fer "intimacy" coz i heard "pat maner?" and "malam ni?".. which is "where?" and tonight?" had trouble tryna surpress a slight.. snigger at that point of time.. freaky shit. but hey. im assuming.. nevertheless.. it was quite interesting. with all due respect, i dont think "intimacy" ( you get what i mean) equals trust/being his forever. and i never will think that way. wad if he's just using u? pouncing on the opportunity that kinda thing. HEY. this is my blog and i get to write what-ever i want. its none of my freaking business if anyone out there is offended.. but then again.. with all due respect, saper yang teraser, mintak maaf eh.. queen im sleepy... and i duno why im telling u that. haha! skuD-out. ary - skidded off the path @ 2:15 AM
i dont mean to say this but... BODOH! ish.. haha~ ngok ah matrock~! nanti aku bilang kau citer~ =D ary - skidded off the path @ 3:45 PM
hmm..stuck in school.. supposed to be mugging but... ishhh haha~ can't believe i spent two whole hours reading this person's blog~ very interesting though~ =) two whole hours of "My Chemical Romance" blasting into my ears.. and two whole hours of being mesmerised.. haha~ Haha~ Lela rocks! Adam.. weds you free? sheeshafication~ ok bored.. will hit back soon.. skuD- ary - skidded off the path @ 3:27 PM
sheesha - and more sheesha - at samar again... with the same people.. only this time it was shorter coz everyone had somewhere to go~ thanx aini~ (= hmm.. these few weeks... been thinking alot.. been slacking too much at school.. been skipping tutorials & lectures like nobodis bisnes.. im like way back in edev and math.. wad the hell... i haven't even bought my freaking math2 textbook.. argh- things got worst when i lost my line.. like kak calls it, "my other half".. sheesh.. that fone used to stick to me like glue. and now its like.. gone.. but hey.. just bhams qualified fer the dream it do it battle of the bands thing.. just bhams is a band. im drumming.. i show attitude meh? u guys dont know me well enuf then.. when im hypered im.. hypered. dont judge me if you dont know me well enuf. i dont judge you so why do u judge me? just feeling so freaking uber fucked up.. haiz... skudOut- ary - skidded off the path @ 11:15 PM
oh well.. i lost my fone.. and.. i lOve Ya kaK!!! wahkhahahahaa~ *HUg* ok nites.. ary - skidded off the path @ 11:38 PM
no i did not blow up in the last entry because of love. aku tak sebodoh nak geramkan hal sal nonok la. kai otak beb kai otak. - stones - im tired of living this way la. fuck cares animore. heard that? Fuck Cares Animore. surprised seeing me using the word Fuck? coz at this bloody fucking moment im bloody fucking pissed. at bloody fucking what? i dont bloody shit in the fucking head know. coz u know bloody fucking what? i bloody dont fucking care any fucking more. haiz.. im just tired.. im missing so many people in my life.. sis - when are we gonna meet up? i wan my presenntt~ hahaha~ =) kak - talk to meeeee... dian - biler nak dudok pat starbucks lagik?? lynnnnnnn - *huG* adam - i miss beating u at pool.. and im missing the old me. im missing my hair. and u know what? and beb dont dont DONT go "awwwww~alalalaa" after you read this coz i know u just fucking love to do it and i wont fucking spare a fucking thought about hitting you coz this fucking matters to me like the bloody mother fucking world. the thing is... im missing my family.. kak.. u included.. =( ary - skidded off the path @ 1:00 AM
* takes a looooonnnnng , deeeeep , breath * BLOODY MOFOING EFFING SHITHEADDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!! *&)*&)^#^%@#%$(!^)@*!&#_*!@$&)#%^)(&*$()@#&* UUUURGGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! somebody please take all my problems away..please... ary - skidded off the path @ 12:54 AM
too bored/tired/fedup to continue with java. yah im at en-somthing-somthing-level5 supposedly finishing up my java shit.. pst later on.. rehearsals yesternite was okae.. this morning ate chicken chop.. wanted to go to habibi but thoughts bout wad i blogged last nite came into mind and so decided to go fer math afterall.. burrnnnn baby burrnnnnn.. skud- just stay away ary - skidded off the path @ 3:24 PM
been coughing like mad since dikir prac this morning.. ee geramnyer aku.. full dress rehearsal on monday.. yayness.. felt like junk today.. everywhere i went i was freaking coughing.. went jamming with hafiz aminah and co. they played to whom it may concerned.. asked me to drum.. err.. lagu slow aku ader kekok sikit ar.. wanted to play metal wid em but they kept saying "later".. -_-" tomorrows sunday.. classes.. urgh.. i dread em.. start at 630 and ends at 930.. draggy long boring lessons.. urgh. so much fer the five day work week.. need to find a good source of income soon.. got "fired" coz didn't attend werk.. oh wadever.. my blog so my say.. runnyyy nooseeeeeee... urghhhh when the fuct will i get the rxk???? too tired to peddle ready la.. urgh.. missin ya , whoever you are.. skuD- ary - skidded off the path @ 9:37 PM
am i supposed to go "yay!!" ? ary - skidded off the path @ 12:17 AM
the only one that i have ever known.... burning up..but cant seem to get some shuteye.. decided to blog..head is like freaking spinning but i'll get this over and done with fast.. school was - *okae *boring *an hour long *hot. felt like - -shit -bored -giving up -fucked up how i feel eh? ok .. just now went pooling with zikky,chok,naz,kak idah,ehsan at pav.. while they played i talked to sham bout stuff.. he doesnt believe in the phrase "let love come to you, dont look for it" . he said that if u dont look for it , it wont happen.. Takdir beb.. satu hari kau terserempak nyer... while i was deep in thought about wad i discussed wit him at pav, Hannah came by.. yeah.. hannah.. i cud have melted rite there and then but... played pool bside her.. argh. i was so freaking stupid. the least i cud do was "hey hannah~ =)" but all i did was keep mum... haha~ and she's wearing havainas wid me!! only that hers is pink.. and mine is black.. i walk this lonely road, the only one that i have.. ever known.... yala..rindu tu rindu..gian tu .. tak gian sangat ar.. tapi aper nak buat? kau tahan je ar. lelamer lesap jugak niat nak disyg(?) haha~ jadi macam aku.. aku tak jiwang pat sesape sesapepon tak jiwang pat aku.. except for adam ah.. gay boyy.. haha hidup tak gerek sangat ah gitu.. rase cam ader bender je hilang.. but again, aper nak buat? dah bagus aku ader kakak yang at least cares fer me.. tul tak kak"nazty" hmm? =) tak tau lah if u even see this.. but i think you do~ =p tapi aper yang paling tak gerek pader aku..bender yang paling menghilangkan steam..biler kau nampak org yang ko syg gi syg orang lain~ haha~ tul tak bro? chill je laa..kau kawin ngan aku sua beb~ =p aku maskahwin tak banyak sangat.. cumer $4,0000,0000je~ =p tapi in all seriousness.. aku paham ah perasaan kau.. sakit beb .. aku tau beb.. sakittt...ko tahan je la ye.. if u keep bugging her.. aku leh bet ngan kau dier benci kau nyer.. dah nampaksah sangat sak.. raser macam nak maki..rase cam nak breakdown..rase cam nak stop all this.. aku dah penat ar..hari hari senyum padehal padehal.. braper lamer lagik eh agaknyer aku leh tahan? - skudOut - ary - skidded off the path @ 11:06 PM
sheesh~ feeling sleeepy. thoned- yeah eye candy.. damn !! haha~ she found out i had stuff in my fone ar. luckyyyy she never say anithing.. haha.. looking forward to fourth march..tjc giggg.. going chiangmai(issat how u spell it?) in late feb early march.. yes alone. yes visiting my saudare. no , i dunno why theyre there. and no , i dunno why im the only one going. got to know this when mom called during java a few days back.. whee.. valentineless this year.. dont want to remember valentines la. i'll just go sleep the day away or go smoke pot or weed or somthing.. unless someone asks me out? which is like most unlikely. which remidns me.. yesterday fahmy me and naz shared something which looked like a cigar but wasnt a cigar.. i dunno what the heck that was but it nearly made my head fly.. AND I LOOK LIKE A FRIGGIN EGGHEAD!! GRRR! bought myself havainas slippers.. hmmm~ black ones with my name on it~ wanted to go shopping fer levis with naz but 3 bloody minders were there. urgh. sis missin ya! get well soon aite~ haha~ poor girl.. lost her sexy voice~ =P wahaha okae im gone . bye~ ary - skidded off the path @ 2:56 PM
Sister, I'm not much a poet but a criminal,and you never had a chance. Love it or leave it you can't understand. A pretty face but you do socarry on. I wouldn't front the scene if you paid me. I'm just the way that the doctor made me. On and on. Love is the red, the rose on your coffin door. What's life like bleeding on the floor? You'll nevermake me leave. I wear this on my sleeve. Giveme a reason to believe. So gimme all your poisonand gimme all your pills. And gimme all your hopelesshearts and make me ill. you're running aftersomething that you'll never kill. If this is what you want, then fire at will. Preach all you want but who'sgonna save me? I keep a gun on the book you gaveme. Give it up, just lock and load. Black is the kiss the touch of a serpent son. It ain't the mark or the scar that makes you one. Fire at Will. Just fire me at will.. Ha- skUd-out ary - skidded off the path @ 4:25 PM
got back half an hour ago.. met up wid yan and joe at s11.. slackasses ah kiterorang.. tired from work.. and from skool.. and from everything else.. gonna be jamming again tomorrow..its slowwwwly taking a toll on me.. but hey.. im doing something i lurve so why not.. tomorrow mite be going over to nysa's pit(?) wid em.. dunno if i can even make it.. see how my schedule ar.. bloody werk.. ah.. where do i seek solace? God la. stupid qn rite beb? and does it give me peace? sometimes..... most of the time i'd say.. im tired of running la..i just wanna settle down and be happy.. i just want to be like every normal guy.. yeah.. i envy him. he's got a caring family, rezeki murah, he has looks,he has brains.. fuct,sometimes i wonder what his flaws are.. if he does have flaws he's hiding em real well.. hmm.. but hey.. tu rezeki dier la eh.. theres no point aku nak bermimpi mimpi jadi cam dier.. need to go cut my hair tomorrow.. rimas giler.. then its back to tryna colour it brown again.. leceehhh... urgh.. studies are getting from bad to worst.. just realised that i've missed alot of EdEv concepts.. what the heck.. im still stuck at npn transistors while they've gone like four chapters ahead of me at high cutoff frequency or wad shit.. total damnifiction.. -_-" heyya penny.. heard ur gonna go into tp design? =p better go fer freshman orientation camp kae? i'll see u there~ =P haha~ ok. im tired. ... aku ader tahap kesabaran tau.. kau pijak kepaler aku kau ngok ah aperjadik yer.. naseb baik ko bukan jantan pu**. geramnyer aku. Dont ask. Just know. <-- my new motto~ =P ok skudOut- ary - skidded off the path @ 2:09 AM
yeah.. just got back from jam session.. very productive.. but hands weren't moving fast enuf.. prolly coz my brain was thinking of something else.. and for the very freaking first time i sweated lyk god noes how much.. =S mebbe coz they played fast tempoed songs.. yeah.. we rock la.. period. school was okay.. completed PCBD with the help of Jjay.. hahaha~ he passed me his schematic to copy~ owe him big time mann.. and finally.. a subject where i didnt fail ~ got 86percent fer pcb.. not that high compared to the nineties that most of em managed to get.. but was thankful nonetheless.. saw hannah.. *melts* don't think she even noticed me.. but just.. wow.. =) *slaps myself in the face* eye candyyy.. argh. anihows.. managed to drag myself thru school all the way up to eight plus at nite after cds... haha.. im broke. anaaaaaaaaaaa!! saw her in the bus just now.. haha~ ubersurprised seh.. haha~ coz actually wanted to take 21.. cheaper u see.. then in the end i was like.. "lazy to walk so take 518 la"... and waddidunoe~ haha~ she boarded the bus at tamp~ cuteness.. okay if she reads this im like so DEAD. hahaha~ yeah.. aniway.. i'll update about ModOp later la.. lazy. bye~ skUd- ary - skidded off the path @ 1:28 AM
skool was okay .. coz i didnt really attend skool today.. woke up round 11 plus.. decided i wudn make it for edev lab even if i rushed.. so took my time la.. reached school, went to lib to print out my java before searching in vain for Kit A.H's office.. blardi hell.. wasted my time seh.. mrKit wasn't at his desk and i didnt know where his freaking pigeonhole is.. so in the end gave up.. went to arab street after that.. drank ice chocolate.. the waitress there was uberdeduper cute.. blue tudung and white blouse... her voice as sweet as everrr~ haha~ *meltsss* yeah yeah so shoot me. took train back to tamp to meet mat rock fer jam... apparently he wanted to record his song for this girl.. jiwang betol kau beb.. train was uber packed.. was standing so close to the door i cud smell the rubber lining of the doors.. literally got squished by this fat ass but got out in one piece at tamp.. saw azimah!! but didnt think she saw me.. haha - yest lepak wid part of filament.. wahhey.. im single, and im lurving it now.. =) yalah.. sometimes u miss hugging someone blablabla.. but hey! it'll go away soon enuf~ =) a free man is sometimes a happy man.. well.. most of the time la.. bro.. i can see it in ur eyes. chill je. bukannyer aper ar.. tapi biler saat orang tak cayer kau leh make it aku ader pat sini sokong kau ah beb. hidup mati members ah eh.. dont ask me about this. just Know. nearing 12 midnite ardi.. shud get some shut eye soon.. i wanna wake up tomorrow for PCB. Oh fuck. that reminds me. i haven't touched PCB yet. shit. ah.. will think of something tomorrow. haha and that waitress was supercalifragilisticexpialidociouslycute! RoaR!!! haha~ peace- skuD- ary - skidded off the path @ 11:52 PM
and i still haven't finished my java reporrrttt!!! argh . total damnification!!!! argH! school was idunokindaokae...flunked math, flunked edev... missed listng test, tcs .. ah..totally fuctification.. shit shit shit.. and i havent touched PCB DSGN!!! ahhh!! shit la. so many stuff undone.. procrastination is a freaking deadly disease. rehearsal fer tjc gig tomorrow..and after that dk.. argh. damndamndammnnnn~ okay i feel like breaking down but no one cares aniway. frankly speaking, aku betol nyer tak faham pompan ar. (jgn teraser ah sesaper pat luar saner eh.) Biler dier dilayan, dier kater kiter dipakser layan dorang. Biler kiter listen to her problems dierkater kiter terpakser dengar. Biler kiter tak layan dier kater kiter luper pat dier. aye Ko Nak Aku Buat Aper????? aH!?? penat ko tau tak!!?? naseb baik aku sabar. ish. aini~ hope ur doin okae.. hang tuff in there aite~ =) *hUg* werking on friday.. wonderin how naz's was.. hmmmm... during java got an sms from aminah.. aiseh.. long time since i last heard from her seh.. rarely see her ard in skl too come to think of it.. yeah.. asked me if i cud drum.. yeah so it seems that im drumming fer her band in tp's battleofthebands thing? =S tah.. dunno lah.. actually i can't drum.. =( i duno how to.. =S saddd.. ah.. so looking forward to tjc gig.. im so gonna be hypered and go screaming on stage.. =D and so much fer throwing my sticks into the tpjc crowd. never got to do that. Shall do it at tjc. ha! yay yay.. 2 in the morning.. gonna halfway do my java before kongking out.. buzzzz missin ya- (expecting ur name?) hahahhaa~ highlight to see who~ +) *winks* skud- ary - skidded off the path @ 2:07 AM |
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