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im sick of this isolation shit. whatever happens happens la eh. its not isolation anyoldhoots. :: someone, lunch with me soon. =) :: withlove, ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 11:32 PM yeah.. been feeling empty these past few days. messages to myself, stoning by myself simple stuff like that. talked to sar late last night. haha~ shes nice la. only that. i dont know why i have to remind myself that im talking to her and not - :: nobody wakes me up the morning on a sunday to do menial stuff. like pringting acc statements. it gets on my nerves you know. but nevermind. =) :: im going back to bed. im gonna try sleep and die. :: withnotmuchlove, ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 12:28 PM id love to... - poke someone i care about rite now. - hug someone i care about rite now. - get lotsa cash. - get rid of these negative thoughts. - have someone close. :: just passing thoughts - gosh i need to clean up these blog. too many vague entries isnt a good thing is it? withlove, ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 11:35 PM [day 2] ive got nothing much to say today. you guys, book me next im going to be freeeeeee - anyone, anywhere. yes, you'll see me more often now kak. =) ria, thank you. :: withmuchlove, ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 8:48 PM (d 1) im sure she had fun. im sure shes just fine. thats all i living on.. assumptions - :: with love, ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 8:32 PM (d 1/2) like a passing shower , mirroring, mending our broken spirits. then the sun shines. =) :: thats how it has always been yeah? :: withlove, ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 11:10 AM [day0] :: the smile that will finally end ::
you know where to look for me. im tired. till then, sweet dreams dear. :: ary - ary - skidded off the path @ 11:22 PM tomorrow is the 27th.. i wonder. :: today i saw a bike collide head on with a car. badi sak. =S :: ary - [hmmmmm..] ary - skidded off the path @ 10:32 PM .. what am i doing wrong? .. why am i not smiling? .. why the same feeling every night? .. can someone tell me? withlove, ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 10:56 AM ..nope not in school. stuff i learnt today. stuffs about 1) Hope - 2) Making sure - 3) Promises - :: what have YOU learnt today? :: ary- vague. you know why? coz this isnt the real me. everything else is tucked in one corner. where only few people know its place. - ary - skidded off the path @ 8:49 PM ...of waiting.. but why am i waiting in the first place? stupid ain't it? hurhur- :: ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 11:01 PM ..missing.. and i dont know why.. =( :: ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 4:48 PM i promise. you know about what. mark my bloody words. i promise. :: ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 1:17 AM why do i feel so empty tonight? ::
im sure you'd be glad to know THIS rubber ducky killed himself. :: ary - ary - skidded off the path @ 10:47 PM .. 7 hours.. and counting. :: ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 5:10 PM you never fail to make me smile ::
dikir. never fails to make me smile. =) :: now fuck off. ary - skidded off the path @ 1:26 PM oh. thank you so very much for the fucking venom. :: grr- :: Jangan disini hati membengkak di sana hati bersuka ria. baik kak mira. haha- :: the ghost of you. i never said i'd lie and wait forever if i knew we'd be together now I cant always just forget her but she could try at the end of the world or the last thing I see you are never coming home never coming home could i? should i? and all the things that you never ever told me and all the smiles that are never ever ever get the feeling that you're never all alone and i remember now at the top of my lungs in my arms she dies she dies at the end of the world or the last thing i see you are never coming home never coming home could i? should i? and all the things that you never ever told me and all the smiles that are ever gonna hug me never coming home never coming home could i? should i? and all the wounds that are never gonna scar me for all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me if i fall if i fall (down) at the end of the world or the last thing i see you are never coming home never coming home never coming home never coming home and all the things that you never ever told me and all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me never coming home never coming home could i? should i? and all the wounds that are never gonna scar me for all the ghosts that are never gonna... ary - skidded off the path @ 11:25 AM .. you to ruffle my hair again .. you to be comfy with me again .. you to pull my ears again .. you. would you? could you? ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 12:50 AM "Yet, holding on can be something beautiful. Even when we know that it will be all in vain at the end, even though it will bring us the most difficult times ahead, it is the only thing that we as humans can try to do in the face of sorrow, loss, bewilderment or incomprehension. We are going to try holding on anyway, because there are so many things that are worth the while -- feelings and memories that remind us just what warmth, bliss, pride, comfort, or pure happiness really is about. Holding on will make it harder for us, but why should life be easy anyway?" - Grace Chow :: how true. how true.. =( :: ary - ary - skidded off the path @ 2:12 PM the road on which none walks ::
i hate that stretch of road. :: felt. betrayed. haiz. :: end it now. :: ary- find me. find me quick. ary - skidded off the path @ 2:06 PM ary - skidded off the path @ 2:05 PM please dont go. please please dont go. come back. come back here. for me. please? :: ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 1:29 AM yeah. the dream. it felt real. kill me now. :: what are dreams really? something that was, something thats gonna be? or just endless fantasies? :: hello people. :: ary - ary - skidded off the path @ 11:55 AM was stoning.. looking up the ceiling.. and i remembered.. =( :: haha~ sarah ur nice! =) :: ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 10:01 PM :: three words? hurhur- get a grip - get a life - get a job - :: and bukbukbuk. learn how to carry yourself. :: come take me away. fly. and teach me. how to take each day , day by day. :: someone, anyone.. :: ary - ary - skidded off the path @ 12:41 AM funny how walking home, i thought. and those thoughts. they were overwhelming. too an extent i was rooted to the ground, with no drive to carry on walking home. drained- void- somebody come. let me fall into ur warm embrace. keep me close. and dont let me go. ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 1:02 AM somebody, anybody. tell me why. it still. hurts. ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 11:56 PM ah. to hell with everything. gonna go get myself a frucking breezer. to hell with the bloody math paper. to hell with all of you. - ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 2:55 PM go ahead. go ahead,bro. take it. take it all. i don't have the money,anyway. :: cashflow problems i face. it retains everything. it causes problems. it takes away things. :: bye. come. thankyou. will you really? empty promises. i hate. empty promises. ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 2:12 PM i was hustling to my exam venue this morning.. when i came across this guy wearing this particular shirt. it said : "Changes are hard to swallow. live with it." suits the situation. now thats fate. how often do you find shirts with those kinda quotes on them huh? ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 1:39 PM some random thoughts - :: the solution. its there isnt it? take it. take it and be happy. and look around you. see how many ppl there are hurt. not only me. not only me. this is all you've always wanted. what else? :: ary- the ghost of you - i wont sit here lying, waiting forever. (man i love this song) never coming home, never coming home, neverrrr - and all the wounds that would never ever scar me- ary - skidded off the path @ 9:28 AM [guys, possible gigs upcoming : ] tp-bis carnival [not confirmed] some hiv conv gig [not confirmed] tapestry [haha] - =) ary - skidded off the path @ 3:28 PM was uber bored in library waiting for dfund2 to start.. haha~ and clicked on bella! been quite some time since i said hi.. nice to know shes still the nice person =) - ary - ::smile. tomorrow will be a better day:: ary - skidded off the path @ 3:24 PM dear you, im human too. but theres no need to understand me. coz it just wont help. ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 11:55 PM like the blade that stabs me so deep ::
lets play cloze passage, shall we? :: i know who you miss! ___d ____d ___r! :: and hey shes diss___d. im sorry for diss____ting you. i told myself youre the last person i would ever _____point. :: questions i would want to know the awnsers to : theyre there. go find em. :: i dont feel like myself anymore. lets jump down. hur hur. :: why did i even bother? why why why.. and where did it end up? the bus seats. i hope it rots there. or someone else picks it up. :: forget it buk. to hell with your neverending hopes and wishes. its time you wake up. its about time you wake up. :: ary - ary - skidded off the path @ 9:31 PM |
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:: skud silent screams :: me i_c_3@hotmail.com :: you Sometimes,
you think you know so much about me. You think you finally did break the
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