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so when will i finally.. coz it sucks feeling stuck.. just dying to break free.. from all the lines entwined so tight.. and the cage thats keeping me in.. restricting my every single move- my every single breath- come whisk me away like somehow someone always does- only to drop me. burn me bury me you guys just dont understand- the will to just roam the streets like how the free man does- not a single care in theworld. nodebts. nodowns. nobody. just perfect solitude. :: i want to walk the streets. i want to walk the streets without a fucking care in the world. i want- theres just so much that i wanna do. which i just cant. which u just fucking cant. :: ARGH! lovemeforwhoiam. can? ary - skidded off the path @ 11:44 PM ah hello. ninjaturtlafiza suker makan epokepok sardine dengan asam pedas. ohhhhgosh. freakin hell im dead bored over here. somebody come play unholy confessions with meeee ha pathetic la eh lifes been a routine these past few weeks. :: im falling deeeeeeeeeeper- skali all im doing is just.. digging my own grave eh.. ahahaha- haiz. farahfinafunanafeenafunina! oit. oh. i changed my number. not gonna put it here in case the fucked up ass drops by again. up urs la fuckk. ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 7:22 PM okay okay -heaves in a HUGE fucking sigh of relief- its only the 24th of may. its NOT the 31st of may. stupid com. haha- ary - skidded off the path @ 4:44 PM i bloody forgot the date i was supposed to go to cmpb. wassit the 29th of MAY or.... the 29th of JUNE? bloody big mufuck! argh. im in seriously deep shit. i am i am i am. argh. fuck fuck fuck. i sure hope its the latter. =/ bloody shittttttttttt :: essamissija! =s ary - skidded off the path @ 4:24 PM yeah. am finally blogging. oifest yesterday =) not the best of gigs but we did managed to pull it off =) big thankyou to imah, who happens to be sitting beside me right now chatting to nani ahaaaaa - :: i. am. dead. sleepy. :: heard some ppl got big walk today arh. haha dah kat kallang tak jengok seh! haha :: havent been home. gonna be slaughtered siot. =/ :: am i THAT despicable? =//// and each day i stand in the middle not knowing whether to turn left or right, drawn nearer by that unknown force, just calling out, making sure im moving. noone understands. and i dont care what you say. :: ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 9:02 PM first up, i'd like to apologise on behalf of a moron, make that a cowardly moron, who messed up my profile in friendster and told the whole freakin world bout it. but we do know who that person is and we do take invasion of personal property quite seriously where i work (which also happens to be where he messed my profile with, the com at work.) so yeah if he comes down again im gonna shove him up the wall and bash his face in. :: thanx fiza =) for taking time off.. really took my mind off stuffs the whole of today =) i still wanna go see scarymovie4. =/ =) :: well, back to photoshopping. he bloody deleted my pics, including the ones on the com. (stupid yes, i saved the pics on the desktop) ary- ps : you people who do stupid stuff, go get a life. immature fucks. ary - skidded off the path @ 11:59 PM sometimes, it just isnt the way it seems. you're the one, you're the one. :: it isnt worth, coz life is too short, too short. (na na naa na na naaa) :: whhhatttt in the world am i doing at nine twenty seven in the morningg.. arghh back to sleep. ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 9:28 AM close your eyes and tell me, can you feel the guilt within? knowing you arent here with me knowing i'll be all alone. a solitary rose, just for you, my dearest friend. =) ary - skidded off the path @ 8:46 PM imagine how weird it could be if one day, you bloghop, and theres this moron who's proclaiming he loves every single blogger he knows. as in, i love you - romantically. now wont that be weird? Now somebody ask me out. can? ha- ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 1:37 PM was browsing thru. now wouldnt it be so freakin weird if we were still together? like, Totally different. looks, ettique, attitude. its mean to stereotype i know. but i cant help it. the first thing that comes to my mind when i see ur pic : omafckinsheep! shes turned into a ____! howell. cant say i didnt change neither. oiiiiieeeee commee onnllinneee laaaaaa boooo =( ary - skidded off the path @ 5:42 PM :: leep gloshh ardn blarkkk ::
im yawning like nobodies business. so so fckuin sleepy.. arghh worst part is - i havent fagged the whole dayy! not even one stickkkk (maybe coz i dont have any?) arghh oieee come online larrr :: i think everyone's at Gema Temasek =/ while im here yawning my ears out. hmm fina and gang came over yesterday =) helluvalot! =) the one with the spicegirls hairr, the drummette! the guitarist who wont tell me her nammeee =) and fina! (ask me how she plays the power chors! veryweirdd!) oh..and the drummer with the dw5000 =/ -i cant really drum with ppl i just met laa haha- haha nyeh. now it feels different without em around -/ darndest. ayte.shall go continue yawning my ears out. =/ ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 5:19 PM comehome take away my sanity take away my fears give me one good reason tell me why im here take away my laughter take away my pain leave me here alone just let me be knowing you arent here with me knowing i'll be all alone again say goodnight to me and these endless lies wont fade away say goodnight to me coz i wont be, coming home coming home :: i miss you. ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 2:04 AM emolition was fine. pissed at the most. :: sombong seh orang tu! haha :: you know sometimes how your fucked up attitude irks me. ive been putting up with it for so fucking long. and its slowly driving me to the edge. you know what, ive had enuff. after this,you can kiss my ass goodbye. i cant be bothered with your selfish desposition. i cant be bothered with your stupid top of the world mindset. members tu members. i just prefer to keep my distance ah. biler aku diam tak semestinye aku setuju. biler aku diam tak semestinye aku ok. bile aku diam tak semestinye aku nak layan ko. bile aku diam tak semestinye aku tak bingit. siape makan cili terase pedas ah :: fuckwhitt. im bloody broke. fifty dollars to last till god knows when [yes i did a gig yesterday. dont ask me why i got fifty.] still owe subsy 360 still owe equipments 250 still owe huda 140 - 30 still owe singtel 269 thats fucking close to 1k dude! :: argh. you know sometimes the cause of me feeling so fucking restless is the fucked up finances. you can never walk without thinking bout how you're gonna slug it off only to get your cash taken away from you. especially when they dont want installments. they just dont fucking understand i dont print money la. fuck. not that im usin the cash to jolijoli siot. sundal betol. ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 3:01 PM  width="240" height="180"alt="Amorous Romantic Yearner" border="0"> hahaha whatttt the hell hahaha ary - skidded off the path @ 4:18 PM GoodGod. Im feeling very very lousy right now. cough. flu. fever. sorethroat. headache. urgh. my head is practically spinning siot. and i have twelve more hours to go before i can end everything. =/ -closes eyes- *breathes in and out* -opens eyes- shit nothings changed. argh. its all in the mind its all in the mind NOT! urgh. comehugme. ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 12:29 PM twelve hours ago i was in this same seat doing the same thing. only i was having much more fun. =/ i need to seriously take a fcukin break. go out, chill, pool abit meet some friends. the atmosphere here is practically killing me. ubershitty. and i need to bloody loose weight. *&(!*@&^#!. :: Emolition is in two days. can be said everythings been wrapped. just wait and see what happens on sunday. :: missinya. ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 11:35 AM -listning to 98.7- DJ : So Jen, whats you doing? Jennifer : Im studying for my mid yearr DJ : Oh! Don't forget to breathe okay? Jennifer : Huh? DJ : Well,it was reported that sometime back a student actually passed on coz he forgot to breathe while studying for his midyear. ...what the eff? hahaha OH its daniel ong la! hahaha lammeeeshit man :: HAHA FINA! remember to breathe okayy? ahahaha :: ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 5:23 PM
you think you're so nice? with your fucking attitude? "oh im olderthanyou. im more mature then you" fuck off, bitch. you keep dissing me. think im fucking stupid. huh. i think ur a fucking slut. what you think ur so pretty that men will fall had over heels for you? tak dapat eh pls. if i had a choice to sit with either you or a rotting corpse, i would sit beside the latter okay. and you never fucking fail to make me fucking irritated. and im the kinda person that wont get irritated easily mind you. fuckshit. bloody bitch. enough with ur "oh im supreme, and i can get guys" attitude and ur "look i just lost my sweetheart. the whole wide fucking world must come comfort me. if not i'll go jump to my death. " three words. GO FUCK YOURSELF. haiz. :: finafinafina appear! WARGH IT WORKED!!!!!!!!!! WHoa! hahahaha ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 6:08 PM They took away my line today. I woke up at ten with yan calling me,stating the obvious. it didnt hit me till much later. i cant receive smses, i cant make outgoing calls, i cant get incoming calls, and i cant melt hearing anyones voice anymore! urgh. its time for me to switch back to good ol starhub. motherfcukin singtel. swindling assholes. :: Saying goodbye, this time, a simple story Saying goodbye Makes me feel like saying sorry some song playing on 98.7fm haark. petrified by fort minor. whattt thee hell hahaa :: farahfinafunanafinafanafunina! try sayin that in one breath. haha cheers! ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 2:40 PM im thinking of going back to school. give everything up and just go back to school. would it be a gd choice? would it be a wise desicion? what can i do with an 'o' cert? fcukin fickle minded. :: ary- melt.meltmeltmelt. ary - skidded off the path @ 10:19 PM another entry for this Godknowshowboringitis day.. time bloody flies eh. :: whoa. stop it man stop it. dont dig ur own pit. how to stop when u cant will yourself to stop? how? ha- i likeeeee. *smacks forehead* urgh. =s :: prettyfcuk. ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 9:17 PM today has been... fine. i guess. woke up on the wrong side of the bed today.. ohwell.. everythings turning out fine i guess.. :: after this im gonna go jam awhile. OH! this morning i went to OUB to get my cheque cashed. i handed over my ic and the cheque to the person behind the counter and she looked at me reaaalll hard. i thought nothing bout it as she dissapeared behind a door presumebly to go get cash. as she sat down again she stared at me even harder this time. Staff : Hmm. Sir , spell your name. Me : M-o-h-a- (oh you get the idea) Staff : hmm. Sir, take off your specs please. Me : Why should i? Staff : Is this YOUR indentification card? ME : I guess so. Does it say my name? (sarcastically) Staff : -silent- [ looks at me as tho im lunch or smth. ] ME : Fine. (takes off specs) Staff : Ahhhhh.. why the picture so thin but you so fat one? LIKE WHAT THE BLOODY FUCK? it isnt much off a difference okay. whats 59 to 61? urgh. but nevertheless, i stoned, smiled, grabbed my cash, went out, and jumped to my death. okay maybe i didnt jump to my death. but i did jump into a cab tho. (everybody go "LAAAAMMMMEEEEEE AHH aRRRrRYyyYYyYYYYyYYY") okok fine. what she thinks she's stick thin? shes fatter than me la that bitch. And mind you im not fat. im c _ _ e. [Shut up yan] ok fine. bye. ary - skidded off the path @ 6:58 PM
MAKE IT STOOOOPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP! MOTHERLOVINFCUKKKKKKKK! ARGHHHHHHH :: *goes outside for a puff* *puff puff puff puffffff* *comes back in and sits at the com* :: SHITT I JUST HAD A FAGGGGGGG!!!!!! AARGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!! *sobs himself to sleep* i want la senza's! *drooooools* HAWWWWWWW! hahahahahaha gosh whats wrong with me today.. ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 2:54 PM what the hell am i doing working on a bloody public holidayyy. urgh the shitness. haha gua setapak lambat ah beb. =/ damnnnn. was listenin to some band tryna bring unholy confessions. whathecrap. (loosely translated) Axe : *riffs then stops* Axe : eh, then what ah? Vox : You play the same thing la stupid. Axe : B*to , call me stupid. You so clever you play ah! Vox : Who say i cannot play ah? Axe : Yahla. You cant even sing then step wanna play the guitar. (at this point i felt abittt offended. i cant sing for nuts but i sure as hell can play the bloody guitar.) and all this while the drummer just sits there likka stupid fcuk. Vox : You oso the same what.Play the guitar je,sing cannot. Axe : Eff you lah. then the vox goes out for a smoke. i should bloody put up a sign at the entrance : "NO SMOKING for Under 18s and senseless arses who have stupid arguments" :: the agony of staying here alone. =/ oiittt come visit me soon laa! =) farahfinafunanafanafinafunina! THEYRE PLAYING RADJA!!! pohhhkkiiiiwwaaaaakkkkk! HAWWWW~ hehe ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 2:36 PM I spy with my very eye, Like history repeating, Itself from the start, Kicking free from the grip, Eternal, not releasing. You stepped into my life On that fateful night, Unknowingly sure of its ending. , How was i able to fall so far And yet be able to stand again In the end it all ceased Zen. the fate awaits. :: i hate nights like these. hot humid eventful. back to the studio in a few. :: was browsing thru a blog. an effiminate blog. made me realise theres much more to it than the way everything is being potrayed. it doesnt compromise the fact that the individual is a guy. and i respect the way he puts his views across, soft,but it hits you hard. fine line, between this and that, if you get what i mean. :: cheers- ary - skidded off the path @ 3:10 AM |
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:: skud silent screams :: me i_c_3@hotmail.com :: you Sometimes,
you think you know so much about me. You think you finally did break the
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