tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-54701072011-04-22T04:26:28.528+08:00My BLOg. Up to me to write whatever shit i want to.ary -noreply@blogger.comBlogger4281100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1163373714369077952006-11-13T07:17:00.000+08:002006-11-13T07:22:03.670+08:00

updates.updates.updates.sigh.vague.dont understand dont complain.poolherbikestupid 5-finger,5-gear theory.campbridge engrish.::duty.duty.duty.to the nation-to the family-to almighty-sick.sicksicksick.::her =))::what if.what if the power was shifted to us?would we become who we are today?im just another statistic.sad life huh.::tummyache.fuckin tummyache.::quit it. arghhh -puffpuffpuff.::eh

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1158166001246863332006-09-14T00:41:00.000+08:002006-09-14T00:57:06.333+08:00

i never knew parents could be first-class hypocrites,who really think they're right,who think they're sooooo religiously inclined,who think that everything they do is right,and who think cheating their son is perfectly fine.well, at least my mom is.urgh.i tell you i cant live like this much longer.like, my patience being stretched to the fuckin limit.once i turn twenty one then thats it.like,

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1155826296397202882006-08-17T22:37:00.000+08:002006-08-17T22:51:36.413+08:00

hahalooking back ,3 yrs ago.hahathe irony,the shame.my what was i thinking.her?!didnt it ever occur to me?how it would make me feel so out of placehow i would never fit in even if i tried how the culture difference would come as a complete total shockonly there for short term happiness-where the fuck did i put my brains man.oh where the fuck did i put my brains.::an entry about realisation-and

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1155640065752674972006-08-15T18:59:00.000+08:002006-08-15T19:07:45.766+08:00

am waiting for her to come -listening to hands of blood.argh. am so hungry //::like,so much for taking care-you force me to wake up a 340 in the bloody morningand work half asleepall for fucking twenty dollars?it isnt that isnt it?you didnt want your oh-so-sweet-i-love-him-sofucker to get tired isnt it?and at MY fucking expense you bloody did just that.i believe in karma.one day, one fine day

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1154289043839778492006-07-31T03:39:00.000+08:002006-07-31T03:50:43.860+08:00

-Give me your hand,blood is spilt and man will follow.infernal man, punishment too great to bear.Raise your head and taste the couragethe one of lightFall from grace, unholy night::like they say,hardcore isn't the music you listen to.-its the way you express yourself-::i can hear the clock ticking.but why am i still awake? ::ahh the pleasures of sleep.had a weird,weird dream last night.eh LYNN! u

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1154210764476007282006-07-30T05:54:00.000+08:002006-07-30T06:08:31.010+08:00

...and im wide awake-::oblivious to their presence,she sits in a cornerslumped,with a cigg in between her fingersonce inna whilekissing,teasing,flirting,and thenchallenging the glaring starespuffpuffpuff.take it off.take it offand dont put it on again.never.it isnt what u perceive it to be.not just a piece of cloth -its a symbol of ur faith.dont you feel the stares?dont you hear the hisses?cant

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1154032898445760732006-07-28T04:38:00.000+08:002006-07-28T04:42:29.950+08:00

hmm.this sucks. i cant bloody upate this thing here coz the laptop wont respond to the enter button. grrr. alright someothertime then. somestuffstho. puff.screamswithinthecar.puff.sobsfromher.puff.'akuakanbuatkomenyesalmengenaliakusundal'. puff.slamsdoor.puff.moresobs.puff.oifuck.wouldyouleaveheralone.puff. i need the enter button la. meeting you inna few =)

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1152752047384064562006-07-13T08:45:00.000+08:002006-07-13T08:54:07.386+08:00

nyeh.some of you guys might have caught that entry full of hatred , angst and such. put up for only a short while.ha-i guess its better to put it down.so much for free speech.its hard to describe that ass.he's like,a fucker who can be a motherfucking money swindling ass at times,and at other times hes okay.Just Okay.Not "oh you're my bestest greateast friend on this planet and i wanna go fuck

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1152524138285253082006-07-10T17:20:00.000+08:002006-07-13T08:36:58.496+08:00

don't test my patience.motherfucker.

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1152272451697708122006-07-07T19:34:00.000+08:002006-07-07T19:40:51.723+08:00

i wonder why everyone tries to write something intellectualy challenging everytime they update their stupid blogs. isnt it tiring?-_-"ohwell. been 'lost' fer quite some time..globetrotting...NOT.just been.. lost. =)lifes been a routine.but hey no ones complaining..been people watching alot. and oh i miss -aishahrahulrohibrajaayunenggpopokcomotrahmatrajasonyapujaand fiza!=))ahh they're all cats in

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1150558479832439302006-06-17T23:14:00.000+08:002006-06-17T23:34:39.930+08:00

hey you..i cant possibly say much,but,my deepest condolances on the departure of ur loved one.. =(you hang in there kae?stay tough. =)::Friends.i never paid much attention to the meaning of the word.to me friends can cause you so much hurt, they can eat u up so fast,you wont know what hit you.ive had friends who loved using the friends they have,who loved stepping on their heads.but then again,

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1149673680196745072006-06-07T17:46:00.000+08:002006-06-07T17:48:00.206+08:00

best friends, they pull the trigger.best friends means you get what you deserve.*sniggers*

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1149343117718419722006-06-03T21:56:00.000+08:002006-06-03T21:58:37.736+08:00

still here.sleepy.very sleepy.am wondering hows you doing.am wondering if-ive got ur name on my wristmy eyes set on this.tomorrows sunday.yay =)going into camp soon.have to settle everything before that date.before that date.and one month prior to that,i wanna walk a free man.=/i...*sigh*ary-

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1149004746582463352006-05-30T23:44:00.000+08:002006-05-30T23:59:06.673+08:00

so when will i finally..coz it sucks feeling stuck..just dying to break free..from all the lines entwined so tight..and the cage thats keeping me in..restricting my every single move-my every single breath-come whisk me awaylike somehow someone always does-only to drop me.burn mebury meyou guys just dont understand-the will to just roam the streetslike how the free man does-not a single care in

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1148556321062323722006-05-25T19:22:00.000+08:002006-05-25T19:25:21.340+08:00

ah hello.ninjaturtlafiza suker makan epokepok sardine dengan asam pedas.ohhhhgosh.freakin hell im dead bored over here.somebody come play unholy confessions with meeeeha pathetic la ehlifes been a routine these past few weeks.::im falling deeeeeeeeeeper-skali all im doing is just..digging my own grave eh..ahahaha-haiz.farahfinafunanafeenafunina!oit.oh. i changed my number.not gonna put it here in

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1148460302688796682006-05-24T16:44:00.000+08:002006-05-24T16:45:02.700+08:00

okay okay-heaves in a HUGE fucking sigh of relief-its only the 24th of may.its NOT the 31st of may.stupid com.haha-

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1148459351228473282006-05-24T16:24:00.000+08:002006-05-24T16:29:11.243+08:00

i bloody forgot the date i was supposed to go to cmpb.wassit the 29th of MAYor.... the 29th of JUNE?bloody big mufuck!argh.im in seriously deep shit.i am i am i am.argh. fuck fuck fuck.i sure hope its the latter.=/ bloody shittttttttttt::essamissija!=s

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1148216721378250002006-05-21T21:02:00.000+08:002006-05-21T21:05:21.390+08:00

yeah. am finally blogging.oifest yesterday =)not the best of gigs but we did managed to pull it off =)big thankyou to imah,who happens to be sitting beside me right now chatting to naniahaaaaa -::i.am.dead.sleepy.::heard some ppl got big walk today arh.hahadah kat kallang tak jengok seh! haha::havent been home.gonna be slaughtered siot.=/::am i THAT despicable?=////and each day i stand in the

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1147881790938252322006-05-17T23:59:00.000+08:002006-05-18T00:03:11.113+08:00

first up,i'd like to apologise on behalf of a moron,make that a cowardly moron,who messed up my profile in friendster and told the whole freakin world bout it.but we do know who that person isand we do take invasion of personal property quite seriously where i work (which also happens to be where he messed my profile with, the com at work.)so yeahif he comes down againim gonna shove him up the

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1147743042209836192006-05-16T09:28:00.000+08:002006-05-16T09:30:42.220+08:00

sometimes, it just isnt the way it seems.you're the one,you're the one.::it isnt worth,coz life is too short,too short.(na na naa na na naaa)::whhhatttt in the world am i doing at nine twenty seven in the morningg..arghhback to sleep.ary-

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1147697235550027872006-05-15T20:46:00.000+08:002006-05-15T20:47:15.570+08:00

close your eyesand tell me,can you feel the guilt within?knowing you arent here with meknowing i'll be all alone.a solitary rose,just for you,my dearest friend.=)

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1147671621257256722006-05-15T13:37:00.000+08:002006-05-15T13:40:21.270+08:00

imagine how weird it could be if one day,you bloghop,and theres this moron who's proclaiming he loves every single blogger he knows.as in, i love you - romantically.now wont that be weird?Now somebody ask me out. can?ha-ary-

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1147513576866715142006-05-13T17:42:00.000+08:002006-05-13T17:46:16.876+08:00

was browsing thru.now wouldnt it be so freakin weird if we were still together?like,Totally different.looks,ettique,attitude.its mean to stereotypei know.but i cant help it.the first thing that comes to my mindwhen i see ur pic : omafckinsheep! shes turned into a ____! howell.cant say i didnt change neither.oiiiiieeeee commee onnllinneee laaaaaa boooo=(

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1147512368612355952006-05-13T17:19:00.000+08:002006-05-13T17:26:08.623+08:00

holy cow..im yawning like nobodies business.so so fckuin sleepy.. arghhworst part is -i havent fagged the whole dayy!not even one stickkkk(maybe coz i dont have any?)arghhoieee come online larrr::i think everyone's at Gema Temasek =/while im here yawning my ears out.hmmfina and gang came over yesterday =)helluvalot! =)the one with the spicegirls hairr,the drummette! the guitarist who wont tell me

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1147198045008693472006-05-10T02:04:00.000+08:002006-05-10T02:07:25.020+08:00

comehometake away my sanitytake away my fearsgive me one good reasontell me why im heretake away my laughter take away my painleave me here alonejust let me beknowing you arent here with meknowing i'll be all alone againsay goodnight to meand these endless lies wont fade awaysay goodnight to mecoz i wont be,coming homecoming home::i miss you.ary-

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1147072270596252692006-05-08T15:01:00.000+08:002006-05-08T15:11:10.606+08:00

emolition was fine.pissed at the most.::sombong seh orang tu!haha::you know sometimes how your fucked up attitude irks me.ive been putting up with it for so fucking long.and its slowly driving me to the edge.you know what,ive had enuff.after this,you can kiss my ass goodbye.i cant be bothered with your selfish desposition.i cant be bothered with your stupid top of the world mindset.members tu

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1146817119418423282006-05-05T16:18:00.000+08:002006-05-05T16:18:39.430+08:00

width="240" height="180"alt="Amorous Romantic Yearner"border="0">hahahawhatttt the hellhahaha

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1146803520997727912006-05-05T12:29:00.000+08:002006-05-05T12:32:01.006+08:00

GoodGod. Im feeling very very lousy right now.cough.flu.fever.sorethroat.headache.urgh.my head is practically spinning siot.and i have twelve more hours to go before i can end everything.=/-closes eyes-*breathes in and out*-opens eyes-shit nothings changed.argh.its all in the mind its all in the mind NOT!urgh.comehugme.ary-

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1146800325583695192006-05-05T11:35:00.000+08:002006-05-05T11:38:45.620+08:00

twelve hours ago i was in this same seat doing the same thing.only i was having much more fun.=/i need to seriously take a fcukin break.go out, chill, pool abitmeet some friends.the atmosphere here is practically killing me.ubershitty.and i need to bloody loose weight. *&(!*@&^#!.::Emolition is in two days.can be said everythings been wrapped.just wait and see what happens on sunday.::

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1146735060814845382006-05-04T17:23:00.000+08:002006-05-04T17:31:00.823+08:00

-listning to 98.7-DJ : So Jen, whats you doing?Jennifer : Im studying for my mid yearrDJ : Oh! Don't forget to breathe okay? Jennifer : Huh?DJ : Well,it was reported that sometime back a student actually passed on coz he forgot to breathe while studying for his midyear....what the eff?hahahaOH its daniel ong la!hahahalammeeeshit man:: HAHA FINA! remember to breathe okayy?ahahaha::ary-

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1146651197128697242006-05-03T18:08:00.000+08:002006-05-03T18:15:51.096+08:00

dont ever come near me, bitch.you think you're so nice?with your fucking attitude?"oh im olderthanyou. im more mature then you"fuck off, bitch.you keep dissing me. think im fucking stupid.huh.i think ur a fucking slut.what you think ur so pretty that men will fall had over heels for you?tak dapat eh pls.if i had a choice to sit with either you or a rotting corpse,i would sit beside the latter

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1146638666397726292006-05-03T14:40:00.000+08:002006-05-03T14:44:26.410+08:00

They took away my line today.I woke up at ten with yan calling me,stating the obvious.it didnt hit me till much later.i cant receive smses, i cant make outgoing calls,i cant get incoming calls,and i cant melt hearing anyones voice anymore!urgh.its time for me to switch back to good ol starhub.motherfcukin singtel.swindling assholes.::Saying goodbye,this time, a simple storySaying goodbyeMakes me

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1146579657726574482006-05-02T22:19:00.000+08:002006-05-02T22:20:57.736+08:00

im thinking of going back to school.give everything up and just go back to school.would it be a gd choice?would it be a wise desicion?what can i do with an 'o' cert?fcukin fickle minded.::ary-melt.meltmeltmelt.

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1146575996717547362006-05-02T21:17:00.000+08:002006-05-02T21:19:56.733+08:00

another entry for this Godknowshowboringitis day..time bloody flies eh.::whoa.stop it man stop it.dont dig ur own pit.how to stop when u cant will yourself to stop?how?ha- i likeeeee.*smacks forehead*urgh.=s::prettyfcuk.ary-

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1146568585904434212006-05-02T18:58:00.000+08:002006-05-02T19:17:20.000+08:00

today has been...fine. i guess.woke up on the wrong side of the bed today..ohwell.. everythings turning out fine i guess..::after this im gonna go jam awhile.OH!this morning i went to OUB to get my cheque cashed.i handed over my ic and the cheque to the person behind the counter and she looked at me reaaalll hard.i thought nothing bout it as she dissapeared behind a door presumebly to go get

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1146466608478417302006-05-01T14:54:00.000+08:002006-05-01T14:56:48.480+08:00

I NEED A FAG! MAKE ME STOP PLEASE.MAKE IT STOOOOPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!MOTHERLOVINFCUKKKKKKKK! ARGHHHHHHH::*goes outside for a puff**puff puff puff puffffff**comes back in and sits at the com*::SHITT I JUST HAD A FAGGGGGGG!!!!!!AARGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!*sobs himself to sleep*i want la senza's! *drooooools*HAWWWWWWW!hahahahahahagosh whats wrong with me today..ary-

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1146466106659315182006-05-01T14:36:00.000+08:002006-05-01T14:48:26.670+08:00

what the hell am i doing working on a bloody public holidayyy.urgh the shitness.hahagua setapak lambat ah beb. =/damnnnn.was listenin to some band tryna bring unholy confessions.whathecrap.(loosely translated)Axe : *riffs then stops*Axe : eh, then what ah?Vox : You play the same thing la stupid.Axe : B*to , call me stupid. You so clever you play ah!Vox : Who say i cannot play ah?Axe : Yahla. You

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1146424672158858772006-05-01T03:10:00.000+08:002006-05-01T03:52:30.250+08:00

I spy with my very eye,Like history repeating,Itself from the start,Kicking free from the grip,Eternal, not releasing.You stepped into my lifeOn that fateful night,Unknowingly sure of its ending., How was i able to fall so farAnd yet be able to stand againIn the end it all ceasedZen. the fate awaits. ::i hate nights like these.hot humideventful.back to the studio in a few.::was browsing thru a

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1146398084284757952006-04-30T19:46:00.000+08:002006-04-30T19:54:44.306+08:00

For all the times i couldnt see and,In the end when im finally set freeNo one knows where i stand so cold,And everything will be okay, come behold.::sugarspiceeverything.im gonna go run off now.will polish you up later,sweetheart.lick those frets bebeh.::

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1146322202519353462006-04-29T22:41:00.000+08:002006-04-29T22:50:02.530+08:00

i can finally tie my hair NEATLY.no more frayed edgesno more clown lookno more afroman.shit i sound like a girl.::im freaking tired of hearing you babble ur stupid nonsense.you think you're the only one in the whole freakin world whos going thru shit?you think just because im younger than you i dont know what you're going thru?fuck you.people 4 years younger than you has been thru worst shit

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1146262513486052342006-04-29T06:12:00.000+08:002006-04-29T06:15:13.503+08:00

gigging today.TJC was a blast. normal cockups but boy did i have one helluva time.TPJC was felt. Like, god knows how it feels everytime the sticks hit the drumset.minus the rushing around, everything was okay =)::sis, hang in there kae?love ya =)::i made a new friend today.and i think she's nice.=)::im too tired to say or do anything.i just wanna fuck myself to sleep.can?::cheers-ary

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1146159534601085392006-04-28T01:05:00.000+08:002006-04-28T01:38:54.663+08:00

Tomorrows friday, no rather, its already friday..Two gigs tomorrow.. lucky they're school based.two sets at TJC , one at TPJCones an open house event , the other some runway show..my hands are gonna die.and i predict drumsticks are gonna fly.and yeah. its gonna be a long day tomorrow =/::this girl dropped by the studio earlier on.just.wow-haha*shakes head*::i want you to know that,i miss you, i

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1146074179374185612006-04-27T01:42:00.000+08:002006-04-27T01:56:19.446+08:00

dear me,i've been having weird dreams for the past few nights.multiple weird (not wet tho) dreams.i dreamt i was sitting with imah outside this detention facility.awaiting our turn to enter the building.Somehow when we finally got in , it was more of a resort than a detention facility.like, shangrila combined with the boys home.Everything was regimental tho. There was pt, breakfast, lockuptimes,

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1145901101795960972006-04-25T01:43:00.000+08:002006-04-25T01:55:01.430+08:00

i take one freakin' step back.i look at the whole picture.i see everyone moving so fast it makes my poor head spin.i stand by the sidelines.watching as you whizz by in a blur.::You stepped in at one point of my life.and then , without a word,You stepped out at another.Like how the others have done.e v e r ys i n g l et i m e .Only this time im too numbed to react.You tore open old

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1145817373422969942006-04-24T02:24:00.001+08:002006-04-24T02:36:13.423+08:00

im getting tired.from preventing this one from slipping away.its slowly eating into mebut theres just so much that i can do.its taking my last breath away from me.its drawing the last drop of blood from my wounds.its making me shed my last tear.await the day i fall onto the cold hard floor,exhausted, not being able to get up.::-shuts eyes--takes a deep breath--opens-shit. its still here.::now you

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1145817250912171782006-04-24T02:24:00.000+08:002006-04-24T02:34:10.946+08:00

im getting tired.from preventing this one from slipping away.its slowly eating into mebut theres just so much that i can do.its taking my last breath away from me.its drawing the last drop of blood from my wounds.its making me shed my last tear.await the day i fall onto the cold hard floor,exhausted, not being able to get up.::-shuts eyes--takes a deep breath--opens-shit. its still here.::now you

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1145714758435607142006-04-22T21:58:00.000+08:002006-04-22T22:05:58.450+08:00

maybe i've set out on the wrong foot.maybe i've irked you soo bad you dont even wanna talk to me ever again.maybe u're sick of ol, boring me.maybe i've ruffled ur feathers too much.maybe it'll all end rite here rite now.or maybe, i think too much. yes?im still lost as of why its this way.nevertheless,got myself an L6. its a stylish, but stupid phone.now would you agree with me girl?shwini and

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1145424485026437662006-04-19T13:26:00.000+08:002006-04-19T13:28:05.036+08:00

im just.. not in the mood.haiz.homesick.homesick.homesick.=(

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1145385955564667092006-04-19T02:40:00.000+08:002006-04-19T02:45:55.586+08:00

Yeah. im still stuck at the studio.i miss my family.i miss my life.im just not ready to get stuck in the studio its like, i've exchanged my life for this.im gettin cranky oftenim bottling things inside morei can just go berzerk.::all i want to do right now,is to go home.to finally get home, rest in my bed,and set things right again.i want to take a break.everythings happening too fast for me too

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1144698930287194792006-04-11T03:50:00.000+08:002006-04-11T03:55:30.696+08:00

ha.doesnt the title say it all?haharabiah!hello.::i like free slutty entertainent!dont you?especially if the free slutty entertainment is ____________________________!!!disgrace isnt it bro?oh i can picture you nodding your head man.and now you're shaking ur headah.same ol' same ol.::some stuff around here doesnt change. ever.::i like you.alot =)like really really alot.howwwweevverrrrrr -*

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1144334859875760782006-04-06T22:36:00.000+08:002006-04-06T22:47:39.926+08:00

*looks at you in disgust*Oh hell you still continue to disgust me.just like a slut.saper makan chilli terase pedas ah.my blog i choose what to write.f*ck off if u dont like what i say.i've got enuf of you backstabbing me.You mess with me im gonna fu*king mess with your head.and i daresay im quite good at that, m*the*fu*ker.::Urgh.Some people continue to irk me, although its been awhile since

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1144091135220246982006-04-04T03:01:00.000+08:002006-04-04T03:05:35.303+08:00

that i wanna be there with open arms?::you know,i dont really know where im heading in life.im tired of wandering around.i have to get my act together quick.real quick.::whatthehell.

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1143885325538018412006-04-01T17:50:00.000+08:002006-04-01T17:55:25.553+08:00

Can't you see that I wanna be there with open armsIt's empty tonight and I'm all aloneGet me through this one::No im NOT in love or something..its just the song its freakin nice.isnt it? =)::I want you to know that, i miss you, i miss you so..haha no one. no one in particular. get that?::i've stepped out of my shoes.gotta think properly now.not like some seventeen yr old fucker going around

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1143789131602581332006-03-31T15:08:00.000+08:002006-03-31T15:12:11.613+08:00

running in circles,ending up where i started.its a stupid journey once again.dont laugh.dont rub it in further.i'll give it a day or two.then i'll knowto continue running,or to stand here alone as i always do.hellno.ary-

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1143488035761801122006-03-28T03:32:00.000+08:002006-03-28T03:33:55.773+08:00

growing to love someone?does it really happen?does it?cud it?wud it?stupid.see it rhymes.gosh.im feeling weird

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1143055246911400512006-03-23T03:18:00.000+08:002006-03-23T03:20:46.933+08:00

hahahahahaha -bitch.LOOK WHAT YOU MADE ME DO.LOOK WHAT IVE BLOODY TURNED INTO.LOOK AT ALL THE THINGS AROUND ME.LOOK LOOK LOOK WHATS HAPPENING.FUCK!URGH.aku boleh sabar.aku betol nyer leh sabar.

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1140613309364745962006-02-22T20:56:00.000+08:002006-02-22T21:01:49.383+08:00

hey..haha i wonder who reads this.. not that it really matters though..been quite some time since i blogged.just dont know who to blog for (some wud say u shud blog for thyself)but what the hell..Modus Operandi has been going okay i guess..sessions running just fine..skawerkz coming up real fast..battle of the bands thingey in the works..life has been whizzing past me at breakneck speed.and thats

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1139680127919182882006-02-12T01:46:00.000+08:002006-02-12T01:48:47.933+08:00

gosh.session2 was okay..happeningg..moshed..fuckedd..just alah i dont want to think about it just yet..::was worried sick i dont know why dont ask me whyi just was.. =shope ur home safe yes? ::gosh.. sometimes i just wish at the end of the day..there'll be.......::ary-

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1139389930518842002006-02-08T17:06:00.000+08:002006-02-08T17:12:10.530+08:00

we have eyes, ears by which we are able to see and hear.i cant be bothered.so i shall bid farewell to everything concerning it.never was i in the same league.two different castes.better off with yours. im better off with mine.::sessions has been okay.fucking bands who tihnk they're fucking bigshots.fucking ppl who think they're fucking kings.you had chosen the wrong time to irritate the fuck out

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1138606763717795232006-01-30T15:37:00.000+08:002006-01-30T15:39:23.726+08:00

hah.You're still the same old you huh.to think u actually changed.comeon.get out of the circle.how the hell would you find peace like that huh?i thank God Almighty for not keeping me in that messy web.ary-

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1138103649546437302006-01-24T19:52:00.000+08:002006-01-24T19:54:09.556+08:00

so finally you see.how the past have been for me.senses fail - let it.you know why its happening?i know why.and its really stupid, if you dont know why.ary-

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1137603152082951612006-01-19T00:43:00.000+08:002006-01-19T00:52:32.176+08:00

jammed.loved the drumset just now.near satisfaction everytime completed my rolls.im pissed and irritated at certain people who didcertain things.i'll just keep it all in, before i blow up the next time it happens again.don't toy around with somebody elses' feelings.coz what goes around comes around.remember?i have work tomorrow.and im hating it.but i dont know why i hate it.yeah. sometimes,i envy

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1137521173162345362006-01-18T02:01:00.000+08:002006-01-18T02:06:13.163+08:00

how the world goes by without me taking even the slightest notice.like,i find myself totally immersed in my own world,that i wont even notice myself on a head on collision coursewith at car travelling at near breakneck speed.(in front of parkway theres this straight road where most cars will zoom down.)i've been listening to music from thephone whenever im not with company.(in other words, most

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1135351845762351612005-12-23T23:27:00.000+08:002005-12-23T23:30:45.773+08:00

Where'd you go?i miss you so,seems like its been forever,that you've been gone.please come back home.-where'd you go [fort minor]::simple lyrics great tunes.just got back from kl with em buggers..for three whole days my mind was clear.then when i came back,everything starts to come pouring in.should have heeded yan's comment."bukan dier. buat bodoh!"sheesh.::will be setting off for bintan later..

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1135056182442548882005-12-20T13:21:00.000+08:002005-12-20T13:23:02.453+08:00

... i wasnt there when sham POP-ed either.and i promised myself i would be there.fuck.too engrossed in work.too engrossed in mo.too engrossed in gigs.your promises will start to fade away.::ary-FUCK YOU BITCH.

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1134792849176342172005-12-17T12:08:00.000+08:002005-12-17T12:14:09.186+08:00

..to mike shinoda.linkin park's second frontman.got the oppurtunity to listen to his sideproject,"Ford Minor"Fuck it's great.listen to it.for me who isnt into RnB that much,his sounds in Fort Minor's just..different.fcuk, it reaches into you and makes you wanna listen.love "kenji"::To think Fort MInor was every piece of his own hard work,its just.. wow.his style,his sounds.about him, about his

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1134729233613197092005-12-16T18:30:00.000+08:002005-12-16T18:34:58.593+08:00

.. from letting thoughts of you enter my head again... from letting my brain think about it... from listening to everyone talk about you... from visiting places which i used to go with you... from talking to certain people which will remind me.coz i admit.i miss you.alot.-ary

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1134471905645414272005-12-13T18:55:00.000+08:002005-12-13T19:05:05.656+08:00

eh.please la.takmo jadi bodoh bleh tak?aku nak mangkuk buat aper?ko pikeh aku kisah?ko pikeh ko dapat pecahkan otak aku?kalau ko nak tau eh.compared to the past 4 fucking months,ini taik gigi la.ko ade hal, tarik aku tepi.bobal.ko ingat je ah.perangai kau,attitude kau,camaner orang tak panggil kau aper yang aku panggil kau ah?orang ader mater.orang ader telinger.aku tak payah bukak mulot,dorang

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1133756139039404772005-12-05T12:08:00.000+08:002005-12-05T12:15:39.050+08:00

ahh.most exciting part of work.lunchtime.sheesh.haha.tomorrow i'll be able to crap with yan!hahabuggers gonna join me..=)::haha~ you know sometimes its..fun to people watch.all the funny stupid stuff they do.the same old waysthe same old things.like history repeating itself.its fun. =)::subsy gig coming up.gosh so looking forward to that.gonna mosh till i drop i tell you.till then,::sarah i miss

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1133614196159404032005-12-03T20:42:00.000+08:002005-12-03T20:49:57.166+08:00

feeling very lethargic.half-dayed today.spent most of the time at work sleeping.spent most of the time at home entertaining myself.just basking in solitude.no i dont think it's something i wud wanna do often.::oh hell.i hate all of this.takmo terase.::ary-

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1133543070711057682005-12-03T00:46:00.000+08:002005-12-03T01:04:30.780+08:00

don't feel like entertaining anyone on this cold dec nite.no , fcuk it i dont feel poetic either.i guess everythings sorted out now.i just wanna shrug everything off my shoulders.to just walk straight down the road, alone.call me irresponsible,but none , NONE of you people knew how hard it was,to conceal everything, then finally letting everything go.all the fcukin tears shed,all the fcukin times

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1133026352792294322005-11-27T01:18:00.000+08:002005-11-27T01:32:32.806+08:00

hmm..so yeah today's my burfdae big deal.anyway,ive been surfin spaces.came across a few.. ohpeenions..yeah i know its their own space.they've got the freedom to express themselves.but whoa.im my view, (thats why im stating it down, its my own opinion. eff off if you dont like it.)you've got it messed up, person.ok,sir,don't drag me to court coz im talking about this.(ha-ha.lamejoke.gosh.)came

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1132502753337359822005-11-21T00:01:00.000+08:002005-11-21T00:05:53.346+08:00

father into your hands i command my spiritwhy have you forsaken me?in your eyes forsaken me.in your thoughts forsaken me.in your heart forsaken me.::so much stuff been happening.spinngng it seems.sorry eh alfian..buat ko bingit..aku mintak paiseh.::trust in my self- reightous suicide.i cry.when angels deserve to die.::so waiting for substation gig.come quick.::ary -

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1132340073684211662005-11-19T02:51:00.000+08:002005-11-19T02:54:33.696+08:00

yeah..everything happens so freakin fast these days.how bout just taking time off,stop.look around.for all the negatives that exists out there,surely the positives outnumber.cant let em control your brain.can you?am chatting with shwini..haha~ hey you! =)::look me in the eye.tell me this isnt real. =)::looking forward to meeting you on monday! =)ary-

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1132295508748028582005-11-18T14:27:00.000+08:002005-11-18T14:31:48.756+08:00

hah.raserkan.remember,what goes around, comes around.karma,sweets.had my share, now its ur turn.::and they say life isnt fair.ha-ha-hah.

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1132219873235215442005-11-17T17:29:00.000+08:002005-11-17T17:31:13.246+08:00

am at yan's place..so yeah.nothing much.missing all of em.ria,aini,norman,yamy,chok,naz,sham!haha~ maner sak korang gi.alah.kiwak. yan dah nak blah.ayte..soon ppl soon.=)

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1132001297506004792005-11-15T04:46:00.000+08:002005-11-15T04:48:17.520+08:00

=)never felt better?haha wish i could say that..but nyeh..thanks zak!for everything.. =)and yan and fian..and YoungNloud ppl..for taking up so much of my freakin time ive practically fallen in lurve with you guys.::ive been doing.. okay..hah.. paiseh la faie.=)haha..okok..have to run..peace ya'll=)

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1131445538284055572005-11-08T18:15:00.000+08:002005-11-08T18:27:59.213+08:00

aisya,im sick of hiding ardi.heck, i dont even hide.i avoid you coz i know its gonna make you freaking angryjust seeing my fucked up, assholic, jerk-like, he-deserves-to-dieinthepitsofhell face.I know apologising wont do any good.i just know it wont.saw you in the bus just now.i still cant understand why you can't put the whole episode behind you.its just you isnt it aisya? you can forgive

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1131260990777006192005-11-06T15:07:00.000+08:002005-11-06T15:09:50.810+08:00

...who reads this blog?well, if you guys do, tag yeah?::you know,the sadness inside,its turning into anger and pain.so much that its starting to turn, also, into hate.:: fuck cares about you.gonna have performance on the 7th and 26th and 11th.ary-

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1130984958005249632005-11-03T10:28:00.000+08:002005-11-03T10:29:18.023+08:00

i hate rayer.i Hate rayerI Hate Rayer.I HATE FCUKIN RAYERRR!!!!god make it all go away fast.make it all go away fast.haiz.go away.go awayyyyyyy.-shuts eyes-shit.still here.

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1130825851991691922005-11-01T14:06:00.000+08:002005-11-01T14:17:32.020+08:00

yes bro.im finally getting sick of this.really i am.every single day,every single thought,every single actionbut nothing in return.im sick of spectating.im sick of evaluating.im sick of not getting any.im exhausted from reminding myself."dont. think. of. it."im exhausted from smiling when deep insideit fucking fucking hurts.im exhausted from missing people.::honestly,seriously.you guys have been

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1130336419764069972005-10-26T22:17:00.000+08:002005-10-26T22:20:19.770+08:00

so hard to please..haha~ maybe thats why everyone runs..maybe its who i am..i aint as nice as they think i am.=/im too exhausted to change that.::guys, dont live on hope.its gonna crush you like an empty tin can.=) like really.::went to geylang..oh well..im just too tired la.::ary-[nono nono dont tell me-]

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1130282500769107492005-10-26T07:18:00.000+08:002005-10-26T07:21:40.776+08:00

my heart screams in rage.oh fuck off.i dont know what im angry about.maybe its because of the unfairness everthing has thrown me into.who the fuck am i to you?was i ever someone special? oh what the fuck.i think not.::yeah. to think i was being ignoredto think that i was once again alone.to think that everyone else was just like me.no one shares my pain.no one shares my fucking pain.::miss me?hur

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1130032963082211472005-10-23T09:57:00.000+08:002005-10-23T10:02:43.083+08:00

before i become a big fat irritating bugger of a fuck,i better keep quiet.yes, sayang?

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1130031584220719562005-10-23T09:24:00.000+08:002005-10-23T09:39:44.236+08:00

" here i go , scream my lungs out, tryna get to you.you are my only, my only one. "::was listening to yellowcard's only one.just got home from work again..no totalled yet it seems. =)work has been -okay.kassim's being a big fat fuck.bloody ass.if he says another word about chok again,i swear im gonna break his fucked up pig nose.whut?you think bark no bite ah?^*&^)!@&(#::haha"siaper ni?"::smoked

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1129557911865154052005-10-17T22:02:00.000+08:002005-10-17T22:05:11.870+08:00

i thought i was dreaming it.really i did.but when that sms came in,and the results sank in-man i felt like the worst piece of crap.cant say i didnt try.put in all ive got.apparently wasnt enuf.so yeah.now im a PHD.wasted my time and money.::i miss you.ary-

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1128615605373797062005-10-07T00:16:00.000+08:002005-10-07T00:20:05.380+08:00

hello people..haha~ ever wondered why you're still reading this blog?=)::bah-lets just say its a dissapointing to know-come to think of it,i've given him many oppurtunities to laugh at me.mock me.look down on me.many many many oportunities.(fuckit i dont know how to spell that word okay)now i finally see the whole pic.like.whoa.what a fool i was.::i thought enough the past night.thougt enough

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1128357835691659322005-10-04T00:42:00.000+08:002005-10-04T00:43:55.696+08:00

i guess im gonna dissapoint a whole lot of people mom and dad.thats a whole lot of peoplewho i didnt know care for me that much.but im sorry ma,ayah.::how am i gonna break it to them?how?

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1128170440242220562005-10-01T20:38:00.000+08:002005-10-01T20:40:41.450+08:00

my name is ary..come girl,find me.can?quickly can?come quickly can?::ary-

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1128092438335754012005-09-30T22:45:00.000+08:002005-09-30T23:00:38.383+08:00

one of the latest tunes by modus operandi -::put me out (tell me)Tell me what im supposed to doAbout these feelings for youGot alot of things to say,Come on now girl, stop playin this gameIn the light,In the dark,You are always on my mind.Trying to make it go away,Now listen to me singThe way you flick your hairThe smoothness of your hand,Its time for me to let you go.The way you make me melt,

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1127981914391332782005-09-29T16:18:00.000+08:002005-09-29T16:18:34.400+08:00

but nobody needs to know-

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1127884342306613742005-09-28T13:08:00.000+08:002005-09-28T13:12:22.316+08:00

you lost it ary.you lost it, big time.::see?you'll live your life like thisfor quite some time::you lost it buk,big time.::ary-

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1127838043243223752005-09-28T00:19:00.000+08:002005-09-28T00:20:43.250+08:00

its all about TRUST.::fuck it.of all people, you?::ary-buat darah naik.dahla eh.

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1127457198179880162005-09-23T14:30:00.000+08:002005-09-23T14:33:18.186+08:00

sometimes,i feel no less like a fool.::i dont know how to take on each day ardi.my days have been a mess..hell..i dont even have a proper duration of time for sleep.its like, whatever goes.unstable.thats the word.mentally emotionally.dah dah dah.don disturb me.::fuckoff,ary-

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1127350468744872452005-09-22T08:51:00.000+08:002005-09-22T08:54:28.750+08:00

just a few pointers in my head-::missing you is an understatement.a big understatement.hahai dont show it much anyhoots do i? =)::exams nearing.shit.::im emotionally lost.very emotionally lost.::i want ___.real bad.three letter word.no, not sex, idiot.::can i be happy again?pleassee?imtired.::ary-

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1127092228163201392005-09-19T09:09:00.000+08:002005-09-19T09:10:28.170+08:00

like.wow.what a blow.sigh-sorry.i dont know how to carry myself well nowadays.::told you noone really understands.ary-

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1127069655617481222005-09-19T02:52:00.000+08:002005-09-19T02:54:15.626+08:00

...sucks.::at the airport.cant get anyting into my freakin head.fuckit la.::stop it.none of you guys know what its like.thru my eyes.just fucking stop it.::ary-

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1127015521061171542005-09-18T11:46:00.000+08:002005-09-18T11:52:01.066+08:00

ah.hello people.havent been here lately-stuffs been happening.. ::gig @ yjc went okay..o-kaynothing much-met hakeem.wahlao.relative ah? -shudders-::work has been fine.12-7am shifts."gdmorning ,your order sir? "for the whole of seven hours.gosh-::got a paper later-wondering what'll happen.::i miss certain people.very,very much indeed.there but not really -smiling, but not really.laughing, but not

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1126804101161868752005-09-16T01:07:00.000+08:002005-09-16T01:08:21.166+08:00

sighsighsigh-::running on empty -with each step i look down andsigh-::ary-you dont know how i feel.nobody does-

ary -noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5470107.post-1126560589658978512005-09-13T05:23:00.000+08:002005-09-13T05:29:49.663+08:00

am at the airport.duno lah-::cant really mug today.just dont know why.::thanks ayam,for accompanying me for that few hours-haha~ feels like i've known you eons seh!=)anyway,dont think too much kae?the world still spins,the sun still shines.like a passing shower,your feelings will be mended.::i've got this line of some song stuck in my small head-"i never wanna be part of the hurt."::and khalid,

ary -noreply@blogger.com