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__:: my letters to
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one of the latest tunes by modus operandi - :: put me out (tell me) Tell me what im supposed to do About these feelings for you Got alot of things to say, Come on now girl, stop playin this game In the light, In the dark, You are always on my mind. Trying to make it go away, Now listen to me sing The way you flick your hair The smoothness of your hand, Its time for me to let you go. The way you make me melt, With a smile like that, Should i stay or should i go? When you are out with your friends, I wonder if you are thinking of me. Is this the beginning or is this the end, Put me out of my misery~ However tough it may seem, Understand me will you please. Help me find this one dream, About a girl who's so surreal- :: ary - skidded off the path @ 10:45 PM but nobody needs to know- ary - skidded off the path @ 4:18 PM you lost it ary. you lost it, big time. :: see? you'll live your life like this for quite some time :: you lost it buk, big time. :: ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 1:08 PM its all about TRUST. :: fuck it. of all people, you? :: ary- buat darah naik. dahla eh. ary - skidded off the path @ 12:19 AM sometimes, i feel no less like a fool. :: i dont know how to take on each day ardi. my days have been a mess.. hell.. i dont even have a proper duration of time for sleep. its like, whatever goes. unstable. thats the word. mentally emotionally. dah dah dah. don disturb me. :: fuckoff, ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 2:30 PM just a few pointers in my head- :: missing you is an understatement. a big understatement. haha i dont show it much anyhoots do i? =) :: exams nearing. shit. :: im very :: i want ___. real bad. three letter word. no, not sex, idiot. :: can i be happy again? pleassee? imtired. :: ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 8:51 AM like. wow. what a blow. sigh- sorry. i dont know how to carry myself well nowadays. :: told you noone really understands. ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 9:09 AM ...sucks. :: at the airport. cant get anyting into my freakin head. fuckit la. :: stop it. none of you guys know what its like. thru my eyes. just fucking stop it. :: ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 2:52 AM ah. hello people. havent been here lately- stuffs been happening.. :: gig @ yjc went okay.. o-kay nothing much- met hakeem. wahlao. relative ah? -shudders- :: work has been fine. 12-7am shifts. "gdmorning , your order sir? " for the whole of seven hours. gosh- :: got a paper later- wondering what'll happen. :: i miss certain people. very,very much indeed. there but not really - smiling, but not really. laughing, but not really - :: somebody ask me out, on this cold,wet morning. can? :: when i look at you, i feel like smiling, and crying. :: goodnyte world. ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 11:46 AM sighsighsigh- :: running on empty - with each step i look down and sigh- :: ary- you dont know how i feel. nobody does- ary - skidded off the path @ 1:07 AM am at the airport. duno lah- :: cant really mug today. just dont know why. :: thanks ayam, for accompanying me for that few hours- haha~ feels like i've known you eons seh! =) anyway, dont think too much kae? the world still spins, the sun still shines. like a passing shower, your feelings will be mended. :: i've got this line of some song stuck in my small head- "i never wanna be part of the hurt." :: and khalid, thanks for everything ah bro- ko pon. dont think too freaking much. dahlah, lepaskan sua. jadi cam aku, single. aku tau lah. tak necessarily happy. tapi single. haha- and im sure a few months back you didnt go around with a huge "Love hurts, no one knows better than me" tag :: gotta go up awhile. dunno what she wants to show me. ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 5:23 AM :: ...i'm skiving, on the fumes of whats left. soon, even the fumes will run out- and i'll suffer the consequences of my actions. - pick me up when that happens. tell me, everything happens for a reson. and promise me, that everything will be alright. embrace me, promise me, and dont let me go. :: ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 1:02 PM :: im tired. tired of loving, but rarely receiving- :: bukan, its just, terkilan- :: lovelovelove, givegivegive. :: when can i receive? enufloveleft, ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 10:04 PM ..ah here i am at yan's place' nothing much to do.. and those two buggers are high i think on the milo they drank ah now lazing around watching soccer before i think all of us conk- :: had quite an interesting day today.. 'acted' with yan on some nafa project. hahaha~ forthe first time i ever heard it. haha~ some 'indian' gurl went googoo gaaga over his acting skills hah~ i think its bullcrap- :: went over, slacked, jammed. had to put up with alfian's weird weird antics- :: met lels eda, hah! passed me salehah's present` hmmmmm simple, but interesting- oh well.. :: chatted on msn- nice people in there.. only was stupid enuf not to go say hi in the first place =) :: hmmm.. and YOU. i dont know why you still hate me. but- yeah. i guess you forgive and forget. well till next time. ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 4:07 AM .. see buk.. look at it. get a grip. everythigns gonna be alright. :: mo, jam soon. please. ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 1:13 AM .. is friday urgh. im so not looking forward to today. im gonna be stuck at home with no cash. no company no nothing. :: most of my friends they're gonna go see sp's production. i guess im not going.. coz - ive got no cash to even take the bloody bus. and i dont really have anyone suitable to go with =/ :: oh boy. its gonna be one silent,lonely day - :: withnolove, ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 11:37 AM ... i look at it from a different angle a positive one. where plus overrules negs. will it make a difference? i should try. i should. :: making you feel like you're the greatest person on earth - :: stillwithlove, and with lotsa thanks. ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 1:37 AM .. dont forget who i was .. dont erase me from your thoughts. it'll hurt. damn it'll hurt. see you walk down, with another - with me left in the lurch. love, ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 6:23 PM was standing at the parkway bustop.. ..reminded how i queued at the posb banking hall for no reason.. ..saw norman's friend with her boyfriend. just like her, the black shirt, jeans, the smile. the way she stood. ..took the bus back. she was sitting down just gazing up at him. she questioned " wanna sit? i'll sit on your lap." they look happy, contented. poking each other, laughing at anything and everything. :: i can numb myself. of course i could. but this numbness im trying to impose on myself, it wont last. it can't last. coz i just can't keep it up anymore. :: withlove, ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 6:14 PM |
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:: skud silent screams :: me i_c_3@hotmail.com :: you Sometimes,
you think you know so much about me. You think you finally did break the
silence. Think again. Im not that simple. |
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