__:: my letters to you                                                                                                 ::  [ ary ]



:: i am just

so hard to please..

haha~

maybe thats why everyone runs..

maybe its who i am..

i aint as nice as they think i am.

=/

im too exhausted to change that.

::

guys,

dont live on hope.

its gonna crush you like an empty tin can.

=)

like really.

::

went to geylang..

oh well..

im just too tired la.

::

ary-

[nono nono dont tell me-]

ary - skidded off the path @ 10:17 PM


my heart screams in rage.

oh fuck off.

i dont know what im angry about.

maybe its because of the unfairness everthing has thrown me into.

who the fuck am i to you?

was i ever someone special?

oh what the fuck.

i think not.

::

yeah.

to think i was being ignored

to think that i was once again alone.

to think that everyone else was just like me.

no one shares my pain.

no one shares my fucking pain.

::

miss me?

hur hur hur.

now isnt that a whole truckload of _____?

we'll see where this leads to,



wont we?

::

im just full of rage it makes my head spin so fast.

ary - skidded off the path @ 7:18 AM

dahla.

before i become a big fat irritating bugger of a fuck,
i better keep quiet.





yes, sayang?

ary - skidded off the path @ 9:57 AM

:: dreams of an idle mind

" here i go , scream my lungs out, tryna get to you.
you are my only, my only one. "

::

was listening to yellowcard's only one.
just got home from work again..
no totalled yet it seems. =)

work has been -
okay.

kassim's being a big fat fuck.

bloody ass.

if he says another word about chok again,
i swear im gonna break his fucked up pig nose.

whut?
you think bark no bite ah?
^*&^)!@&(#

::

haha
"siaper ni?"

::

smoked my lungs out tonight.
oh.

i saw this stunning laydee yesternite..

-big smile- "can i have tissue?"
..30 secs later

-big,shy smile- "more chilli sauce can?"
..30 secs later

-big, shy , paiseh smile- "urm.. sorry sorry, ader small cup tak?"

like whoa.
if she came by again,
i swear i wud have wanted to ask her
for her number..

-_-" like i can get liddat.
phwet.

-

that kinda made my night-
till a few customers later.

guy: can i have a whopper wid cheese great deal meal?
me : sorry sir, we're serving only breakfast.
guy: come again?
me : we're serving only breakfast , sir.
guy: you're kidding rite?
( shook my head )
guy: what the hell. in america we can get whoppers at any time of the day ya noe?
me : you from america , sir? -big smile-
guy: Yeah.
me : well, welcome to singapore. and here, we serve breakfast till 12 pm. if you still want to wait for your whopper, you can stand at the side till noon and i'll gladly order you your burger sir. -big smile-
guy: fuck (under his breath la.)
and he walks off..

amusing people i get to interact with.

::

i wanna go hit drums.

kemana pergi kau ku mencari,

::

oh well.


who the fuck cares.

well, not ___ for sure.

::

ary-




oh. ah radhiyahhhhhhh
damn freaking stunning !!!!

arghhhh i want!

ary - skidded off the path @ 9:24 AM

:: look me in the eye-

i thought i was dreaming it.
really i did.

but when that sms came in,
and the results sank in-

man i felt like the worst piece of crap.

cant say i didnt try.
put in all ive got.

apparently wasnt enuf.

so yeah.
now im a PHD.

wasted my time and money.

::

i miss you.

ary-

ary - skidded off the path @ 10:02 PM

:: the fool finally sees

hello people..

haha~ ever wondered why you're still reading this blog?

=)

::

bah-

lets just say its a dissapointing to know-

come to think of it,

i've given him many oppurtunities to
laugh at me.
mock me.
look down on me.

many many many oportunities.
(fuckit i dont know how to spell that word okay)

now i finally see the whole pic.
like.
whoa.
what a fool i was.

::

i thought enough the past night.
thougt enough that my brain decided its not worth it
to think too much.

::

well guys,
if you people out there have anything agaisnt me or my actions,
please.

tell it straight in my face.

yan,
thankyou. coz you did the same exact thing.
i respect you for that, bro.

frankness's the thing that somehow keeps me on the ground.

loveya'll

except

ary-

ary - skidded off the path @ 12:16 AM

:: sorry

i guess im gonna dissapoint a whole lot of people

mom and dad.

thats a whole lot of people
who i didnt know care for me that much.

but im sorry ma,ayah.

::

how am i gonna break it to them?

how?

ary - skidded off the path @ 12:42 AM

:: ary

my name is ary..

come girl,
find me.

can?

quickly can?
come quickly can?


::

ary-

ary - skidded off the path @ 8:38 PM


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