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hmm.. so yeah today's my burfdae big deal. anyway, ive been surfin spaces. came across a few.. ohpeenions.. yeah i know its their own space. they've got the freedom to express themselves. but whoa. im my view, (thats why im stating it down, its my own opinion. eff off if you dont like it.) you've got it messed up, person. ok,sir,don't drag me to court coz im talking about this. (ha-ha.lamejoke.gosh.) came across this space. malay sixteen yr old girl. who happily goes around telling everyone how she despices, of all things, typical malays. sheesh. [in case she doesnt understand fckin typical malay] aren't you a FCKIn TyPiCal MalAY too, person!? [in english]] annade poora slipafey Fckin typical MalAy adarpaavi blabloo!? [in tamil] bukankah awak jugak seorang FcKin typiCal MalAY!? [in fucking typical malay] cheng choo wo blubber seng shong Fcking Typical MalaY swee?! [in chinese] [and just in case she understands only monkey language.sheesh.] hoo haaaaa ah ah ah' euuoooohhh hu hu Haaa hUhUhHaaa aaaah' ? (jgn terase eh.) unless you have this weird mindset that hating yourself is a good thing, arent you stabbing your own fckin self? ha. no.. im not taking on the side of a fckin typical malay, even tho im a fckin typical malay myself. [bukan matrep eh.aku mlayu lepak.] do we convey that bad a message to society? do we really? thinking too deep/much. i'll leave it as it is. dont fcuk with me. this is my own fckin space. :: ary- [ps. sya ur nice! haha.. err.. sya yjc eh.] ary - skidded off the path @ 1:18 AM father into your hands i command my spirit why have you forsaken me? in your eyes forsaken me. in your thoughts forsaken me. in your heart forsaken me. :: so much stuff been happening. spinngng it seems. sorry eh alfian.. buat ko bingit.. aku mintak paiseh. :: trust in my self- reightous suicide. i cry. when angels deserve to die. :: so waiting for substation gig. come quick. :: ary - ary - skidded off the path @ 12:01 AM yeah.. everything happens so freakin fast these days. how bout just taking time off, stop. look around. for all the negatives that exists out there, surely the positives outnumber. cant let em control your brain. can you? am chatting with shwini.. haha~ hey you! =) :: look me in the eye. tell me this isnt real. =) :: looking forward to meeting you on monday! =) ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 2:51 AM hah. raserkan. remember,what goes around, comes around. karma,sweets. had my share, now its ur turn. :: and they say life isnt fair. ha-ha-hah. ary - skidded off the path @ 2:27 PM am at yan's place.. so yeah. nothing much. missing all of em. ria,aini,norman,yamy,chok, naz,sham! haha~ maner sak korang gi. alah. kiwak. yan dah nak blah. ayte.. soon ppl soon. =) ary - skidded off the path @ 5:29 PM
never felt better? haha wish i could say that.. but nyeh.. thanks zak! for everything.. =) and yan and fian.. and YoungNloud ppl.. for taking up so much of my freakin time ive practically fallen in lurve with you guys. :: ive been doing.. okay.. hah.. paiseh la faie. =) haha.. okok.. have to run.. peace ya'll =) ary - skidded off the path @ 4:46 AM aisya, im sick of hiding ardi. heck, i dont even hide. i avoid you coz i know its gonna make you freaking angry just seeing my fucked up, assholic, jerk-like, he-deserves-to-dieinthepitsofhell face. I know apologising wont do any good. i just know it wont. saw you in the bus just now. i still cant understand why you can't put the whole episode behind you. its just you isnt it aisya? you can forgive everyone except me.me,the pembastard bulan ramadhan. rite? heck. for the past two years, i've been longing to just go up to you and say "aisya,can we talk? im really sorry." i've been wanting to reason out stuff with you. wanting to just sit down and explain. MAYBE then you could realise. wait. "wanting" is an understatement. trust me. because of this acrid hatred you have against me, im finding it hard to interact with friends in tpjc. friends in tpjc? yeah. quite a number. everytime i bump into husna, everytime i bump into nadiah at tp, everytime i bump into marliana or marlia everytime i bump into syazawni, the akwardness that surfaces inside of me eats me up. why? coz im torn between just saying hi or pleading to them, "help me. help me tell aisya." People change, aisya. i've experienced it first hand. got it straight in my face. just keep in mind, people change. I, change. :: Just for the record, i dont hate you aisya. i never did hate you. or the words you threw at me. of for every sentence you told em. all i want to do now, is seek forgiveness. heck,its been what ive been wanting to do sice two years back. only i never got the chance. people change, laydee. people change. :: if you finally get tired of getting angry at me, my number : 81149599. -ary. ary - skidded off the path @ 6:15 PM ...who reads this blog? well, if you guys do, tag yeah? :: you know, the sadness inside, its turning into anger and pain. so much that its starting to turn, also, into hate. :: fuck cares about you. gonna have performance on the 7th and 26th and 11th. ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 3:07 PM i hate rayer. i Hate rayer I Hate Rayer. I HATE FCUKIN RAYERRR!!!! god make it all go away fast. make it all go away fast. haiz. go away. go awayyyyyyy. -shuts eyes- shit. still here. ary - skidded off the path @ 10:28 AM yes bro. im finally getting sick of this. really i am. every single day, every single thought, every single action but nothing in return. im sick of spectating. im sick of evaluating. im sick of not getting any. im exhausted from reminding myself. "dont. think. of. it." im exhausted from smiling when deep inside it fucking fucking hurts. im exhausted from missing people. :: honestly,seriously. you guys have been my pillar of strenght. corny? if you think it is fuck off. even when you guys are busy with your own sweethearts your own schoolwork. you guys never fail to make time to share a smoke with me, to just hang out at 7k even if it means having to go down all the way from the other side of singapore. you guys never fail to keep me on the ground. even if it means having to slap me. you guys never fail to make me realise im hurting myself. brotherly love people. brotherly love. kinda off, but i swear id be the first to rush down and help, if u guys should need any. cheers to you, apian,fyan. :: there are some places i should stop going to for the time being. "stop living on hopes. even minute ones." thats what he said. thats what im gonna do. :: i see someone who's gonna be the next me. have fun, bring him far. dont let him suffer my stupid fate. okay? :: orbituaries, page 32. soon people. soon. :: ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 2:06 PM |
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:: skud silent screams :: me i_c_3@hotmail.com :: you Sometimes,
you think you know so much about me. You think you finally did break the
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