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__:: my letters to
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Where'd you go? i miss you so, seems like its been forever, that you've been gone. please come back home. -where'd you go [fort minor] :: simple lyrics great tunes. just got back from kl with em buggers.. for three whole days my mind was clear. then when i came back, everything starts to come pouring in. should have heeded yan's comment. "bukan dier. buat bodoh!" sheesh. :: will be setting off for bintan later.. see you guys soon. wait. see who soon? :: mentally exhausted. has always been. nyte, ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 11:27 PM ... i wasnt there when sham POP-ed either. and i promised myself i would be there. fuck. too engrossed in work. too engrossed in mo. too engrossed in gigs. your promises will start to fade away. :: ary- FUCK YOU BITCH. ary - skidded off the path @ 1:21 PM ..to mike shinoda. linkin park's second frontman. got the oppurtunity to listen to his sideproject, "Ford Minor" Fuck it's great. listen to it. for me who isnt into RnB that much, his sounds in Fort Minor's just..different. fcuk, it reaches into you and makes you wanna listen. love "kenji" :: To think Fort MInor was every piece of his own hard work, its just.. wow. his style, his sounds. about him, about his family. about his life. excellent, would be a major understatement. :: ary ary - skidded off the path @ 12:08 PM .. from letting thoughts of you enter my head again. .. from letting my brain think about it. .. from listening to everyone talk about you. .. from visiting places which i used to go with you. .. from talking to certain people which will remind me. coz i admit. i miss you. alot. -ary ary - skidded off the path @ 6:30 PM eh. please la. takmo jadi bodoh bleh tak? aku nak mangkuk buat aper? ko pikeh aku kisah? ko pikeh ko dapat pecahkan otak aku? kalau ko nak tau eh. compared to the past 4 fucking months, ini taik gigi la. ko ade hal, tarik aku tepi. bobal. ko ingat je ah. perangai kau, attitude kau, camaner orang tak panggil kau aper yang aku panggil kau ah? orang ader mater. orang ader telinger. aku tak payah bukak mulot, dorang boleh nampak sendiri, bodoh. ary- :: aku dah malas nak layan orang perangai macam kau. aper yang aku dapat? habuk ah. bodoh. ary - skidded off the path @ 6:55 PM ahh. most exciting part of work. lunchtime. sheesh. haha. tomorrow i'll be able to crap with yan! haha buggers gonna join me.. =) :: haha~ you know sometimes its..fun to people watch. all the funny stupid stuff they do. the same old ways the same old things. like history repeating itself. its fun. =) :: subsy gig coming up. gosh so looking forward to that. gonna mosh till i drop i tell you. till then, :: sarah i miss crappin wid ya! =) ok bye~ ary - skidded off the path @ 12:08 PM feeling very lethargic. half-dayed today. spent most of the time at work sleeping. spent most of the time at home entertaining myself. just basking in solitude. no i dont think it's something i wud wanna do often. :: oh hell. i hate all of this. takmo terase. :: ary- ary - skidded off the path @ 8:42 PM don't feel like entertaining anyone on this cold dec nite. no , fcuk it i dont feel poetic either. i guess everythings sorted out now. i just wanna shrug everything off my shoulders. to just walk straight down the road, alone. call me irresponsible, but none , NONE of you people knew how hard it was, to conceal everything, then finally letting everything go. all the fcukin tears shed, all the fcukin times i had to bite my tongue, all the fcukin times i had to look on. fuck it bro. im human too. i realised what i've been doing. immersing myself in work, jam sessions, Young and Loud, my bros', i've been pulling away from the very friends that shaped my charater from the beginning of poly. ria, aini, sham, naz, all the ppl that meant so much to me, tho i dont know if i mean anythign to them. i feel fuckin bad. knowing that the whole gang was there with aini, ria,norman,wan,maryam. but not me. not me.. i wouldnt blame it on anyone. i thought there were only certain ppl that could be there. fcuk it, im not tryna save my butt here. but aini, if you do read this. as much as, at times, i find you irritiating, i swear i would have rushed down to where you were. i havent been a good friend lately. but yeah. im tired of appeasing ppl, if it leaves a long trail of mental exhaustion in its wake. :: thanks, yan and yana - for being the irritating couple you guys are. =) (and providing me with free shows? haha kiddinggg.) funny as it seems, you guys show me that love sometimes do help you. and that sometimes love does work. =) fyan - for being a nice mofo. =D hahahaha. i've been dying to say that. hahaha. seriously, for keeping me on the ground. and for entertaining me with stupid questions you shot at your gf's father. hahaha amek ko! dont fcukin call me emo coz i dont like it. and yanacuzzin for constantly irritating me tonight. stop fcukin popping up and down in msn la! fckuing irrittating sak!! :: apologies. i dont know how to start. neither do i know how to end. takecare,my friend. ary - skidded off the path @ 12:46 AM |
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:: skud silent screams :: me i_c_3@hotmail.com :: you Sometimes,
you think you know so much about me. You think you finally did break the
silence. Think again. Im not that simple. |
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